Lost

I pushed them away

I lost my only true friends

What can I say

Come back I'm sorry

I can't because two of them are dead

I would've saved them

Only if I had been there in time

Scarified myself instead 

Seeing their family and friends mourn and cry

I pushed them away

Because I caused this

They say It wasn't my fault there wasn't anything we could do

But I know deep inside that

I could've helped

I watched as the pain grows more they've moved on 

But not me I can't

If this is what's going to happened 

If I can't be there for them 

why

why have them here with me 

All I'll do is not save them

So in the end 

I'll leave

Im better off alone and lost

Than being cared for and losing

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[dw817]

Two of your friends are dead ? Figuratively speaking or ... ?

And no, it is =ALWAYS= better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. I know you may think some people you meet in this world are just out to harm you. And in some cases, you are right. But in other cases, no, they are just as lonely, confused, and sad as you are - looking for someone like them.

Like a bee to honey, sometimes you have to buzz around for a-while just to find the right garden. :) Statistics prove you have a greater chance of meeting someone new outside your door rather than inside your home.