A Sadness Quite Unshakeable

A sadness quite unshakeable, almost unbreakable in resolve.

In checks in every now and then, a reminder not to forget

the reality of it all.

It's an addiction, this sinking into meloncholia,

this friction with being in a happy state of mind.

Decaying little fingers peeling away at my heart,

baring my soul, that loss of control, screaming

of hopelessness thats black as coal.

If I work tirelessly I may expose light through the darkness, the unrest.

I've known true joy, have memories of uncontrollable smiles,

childlike exuberance.

Its in here, I know, buried under bleakness and boredom,

false hopes i've stolen from.

Paint me a picture, sweetness seeping through of colors

you see in happy dreams.

The intense wishing they were true.

This sultry addiction, this lady of the night,

she walks in the darkness that I try to fight.

Let me be happy and free, take your teases elsewhere,

I'm worn by your endless glee.

Reviews

[MachinaWriter]

"The intense wishing they were true / This sultry addiction, this lady of the night, / she was in the darkness that I try to fight."

An amazing poem and that part really caught it up for me. Once again, great imagery, full of emotion and imagination. Potent glimpses of a sorrowful soul. Thank you for sharing, I'm becoming a fan ^^

[Melody Telleria]

Thank you for taking the time to read some of these poems. They have been hidden away in my journal and now I feel free to share.
Those lines that you like, they are strong for me too (=

[MachinaWriter]

Absolutely no problem. I enjoyed reading them ^^

[KaraSmiley]

I understand this poem by my own heart. You really thought this through and I think a person that does not or has not ever felt this way would understand it! I enjoy how far you've really thought through this. A simple mind wouldn't understand such as this but someone with more experience would understand! I'm glad that you posted!