Crown Of Guilt

it's a story that reflects how bad Guilt can affect our lives!!!

people were running,lots of screams were everywhere,that little corner at the cafe seemed like crossing roads...people were rushing...coming &going...
some ran away some came to watch...between all the crowd he stood there with tearful eyes,shaking hands,fast breath...looking at her her laying in a lake of blood on the floor then looking at his hands.

policemen &investigators were in the crime scene,he felt a hand touching his shoulder then he heard a voice "you are the security man for that floor right? " he nodded to the police man
the police man said:describe what happened please. the security man just stood there....there were no words to say...just tears filled his heart before his eyes.
do u know her?"said the police man & continued"you've to help us do you know her?
the security man said:i don't know,he just looked at the girl &back at his hands
i'm afraid am gonna have to ask you to come with us said the police man"
the security man didn't argue or reject,he stared at the young girl on the floor.
two men came to take away the body,his eyes were following them.then he found himself standing in her blood...he couldn't move.
come with me please" said the police man.
so he followed the police man &went with the police force.
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he sate infront of the police man's desk....."you've to tell us everything you know "said the police man
with shivering voice the security man said"i don't know much about her,i remember last week when she first came to the cafe at the mall.she was weird...looking around her like if she was running away from something,i just kept watching her.she sate &had a drink then she left.
two days later she came back with that weird behaviour,that's when i noticed she had a gun
her look,moves,behaviour made me suspecious about her,i kept watching her...i was worried she might cause any trouble
i went to her....she just looked at me.....i said: good afternoon....she had a weird smile on her face.i asked:are you ok?....i knew it was weird from me to do so but i just couldn't help it..i was worried...that's my job u know!
she said:what is that? she looked angry & said:not your business anyway..... i said:you've agun.she said:so???!did i use it?then she laughed ironicly. i said:am sorry......it's my job to make sure that nothing is wrong &everybody is allright. she said:don't worry everybody is just fine.....i couldn't shut my mouth...i asked her if she had a licsense for her gun. she looked at me with eyes wide open &said:call the cops when they come i'll show it to them.after her words i couldn't say more...just walked away looking at her from my corner
i spoke to myself that girl was really aggresive unlike her look.then she payed &left
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two days later she came back...i just changed my clothes....i was about to leave..finished my work for that day.something was pushing me to go for her but i couldn't....that girl was a pure mystery.then she smiled.so i went close to her .......
she said:well well well.....how are you? then she smiled.....she was nice.....i spoke to myself ironicly was she going to use her gun? then i smiled back at her &said:i am fine thanks.
sit down" she said
i sate ...i was wondering what's going on..looking at her trying to figure out...was she the devil or just a naughty angel???
she said:am i a trouble for you?are you scared? then she laughed
i said:i'm not....i'm not...should i?&i smiled.
she smiled....then i asked:what's with the gun thing?what's going on?who are you...lots of questions just burst from my mouth...i thought it was time to reveal the secrets..
then she said:hey...easy mr. i let you sit 'cause you are off work..then she laughed....
then she continued:i don't hurt people.it's for self protection...what's the big deal about it?it's nothing.
i knew she was just miss leading me...i knew she was lieing...something in her trembling voice told me that...
i said:whatever your story is....you are two young to walk around with a gun,&this is not a solution for any trouble nor any threat...becareful &look forward to your future...&you don't know how much it's hard to use a gun.when you are in that moment you may not be able to even touch it....she smiled &said:talking about future??then she laughed..
look i don't know what kind of situation do we 've here?but if you are in some kind of trouble you should ask for help.tell the cops for protection...i said.
she said"there is nothing to do..
silence broke through..we were just looking at eachother eye to eye..
then she smiled &said:i can promise you to think about the future thing on 1 condition...i asked:which is?....she said: if something bad happened know it's ur fault &you've to take the blame.you gonna have to live with guilt....then she stopped talking...she looked like if she was remembering something...then she said:you don't know what's guilt like!
i said:nothing going to happen.just tell me your story.
she smiled with tearfull eyes:i'm scared....scared....i've been running away for so long.i'm sick &tired....i have so much on my shoulders....i'm feeling so much guilt..more than i can take....i can't take it anymore...then tears were rolling down her cheecks....looked like a diamond drops...then she continued"i almost forgot what's like to live a normal life..she cried again...then she stopped...a cruel look on her face changed her entire behaviour...she looked like she was afraid of her own tears.suddenly...she stood up with a sad look on her face.i begged her to sit back...but no use...i was embaressed so much....so i let her go...watched her leaving....million thoughts were on my head...she was my riddle...a beautiful tiring secret.
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then today....here she came....i was in work hours....i looked at her...then i noticed she looked different.....so much different....something maybe about her hair...no...clothes maybe...her whole look....she seemed happy....alive...better than those other times...
she looked at me with a shiny look all over her face...so i smiled at her...
i spoke to myself whatever happned &made that girl cruel on herself it couldn't be her fault...she was so innocent.
eye to eye....smile to smile....felt like if there was something magical wrapping both of us ina circle outside this world......i just saw her....i just really saw her...i can see through her soul......
then a sudden voice came to grap us out of this magical moment...a gun's shot....it was like if i blinked my eyes &found her shot on the floor.....as a security man i should've done something...i'm not even sure what..but i just got frozen...stood there without a move....looked at her...a smile was on her face....she is gone...
i said to myself...is it my fault? i did that to her didn't i?she let go because of me then i couldn't imagine how hard were my words....i can't take the blame...i can't.....
then he cried....
that's all i know officer...that's all....&cried again.


"the guilt that she was talking about...&running away from...now belongs to this man.
she wanted to leave,she was running away from guilt more than death.
no one knew her story...who she was?what she did?who killed her?&if she really deserved to go in an eye blink...just like that!..she ramined a mystery.we just know that she did what she wanted...finally had what she seeked.she died smiling...payed her life for couple of minutes...she had the normal life she was dreaming of....for minutes...yes.!not for long! but we all know to her those were really precious.
she gave away her gun...she let go..she finally knew that running away won't do...
she escaped life to the life beyond...&she left the guilt for some one else to live with....she was like the queen who gave up her everything...her crown..her guilt crown &placed it on that man's head...he is now wearing her crown....with no end"
the end

Author's Note

this story were written 2 years ago,feel free to judge:)

Reviews

[Vinod Kumar U K]

Well written story....no wonder.. by profession you are a pharmacist, there were so many experience. it enlightened the real picture happening surrounding us.. thanks for sharing.