sestina written for you

A sestina poem. The five words used over and over again are stop, pain, breathe, time, mess, and peace.

i never knew that it would just stop

i never knew that there would be pain

in something that made me so happy i would forget to breathe

it's happened before, but it's different this time

this time, my heart's a mess 

And i can’t seem to find peace 

with what you’ve done to me and i’ve done to you, not peace

only war, a war that hasn’t and will never stop

i thought i loved you, but my heart was a mess

and every time i thought it would change, there would only be pain

but yet, no matter the heartbreak i will still be here for you anytime 

you need me, i want to be the one to help you breathe

i would gladly give you my air, causing me not to breathe

even though you’ve never given me peace

or love back, i would do it every time

i just wish that my feelings towards you would stop

my heart breaks every time you cause me pain

because i know i will stay with your mess

the good times we had together was a hiding a mess 

in disguise. every time i would see you i would stop and remind myself to breathe

little did i know how you would one day bring me pain

i know now that we will never make peace

and all the good times, i wanted to stop

them and make them last forever, oh how i wished i could stop time

but now every time 

i see you, it is a reminder that our love is a mess 

why can’t my heart listen to my head and stop 

thinking about you constantly? i get so confused and forget to breathe

thinking about what we could’ve been, a battle going on inside my head never finding peace

never understanding that you are what caused me pain

but throughout all the pain

i see you and i want you every time

but never again will your peace-

-full ocean eyes light up because of me, never will your smile grow when you see me in a mess

-y, crowded room full of people. never again will you comfort me and remind me to breathe

if you’re going to forget about me, please, please, please, make my feelings for you, stop.