lonely

A Poem by nerdyrant

I got two pillows because letting go was tough
palpitations cos you were in places far away
felt off cos i thought phone calls were not enough
jealous cos i got less attention than your book
sad cos i couldn't wipe the bad day's stench off you
prayed a little longer to make more room for you in it
i loved u a little more cos that was obviously all
i knew how to do

I fight back harder because that's what you have taught me to
faced harder challenges as your hug came with breasting the tape
not that cinderella exists but you were my very own fairy tale
your voice making me stronger on many a night
i have got few friends who do not judge
you simply try to be me
being me has become more fun
since knowing you

I may not always be the best,its okay
next to God and family,runner-up ,u 've got a place
i love you for patiently loving me
especially at those times when it was hard
i do want you to know that on turning twenty,
your best gifts to me are your ears
you always listen as talking to you is what i do best
i love to watch your ears pucker when i talk
than make a lutheran speech.