FF&L

FF&L

A Poem by Fanicia E.
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Damned if I do, Damned if I don't

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What is love? 
Is it disappointment 
Fallacies 
And playing make believe? 

Is love living with expired hope 
And filed away dreams?  

Does love set you on fire? 
Make your inner being scream? 
Sleep for now but face tomorrow 
In a state of constant misery.

Is love expectations 
From those you can't replace? 
And if you don't meet their demands 
You're gone without a trace?  

All I have are cheap imitations and the pain that they bring.  

Maybe in another lifetime I'll get a slate that is clean.

© 2018 Fanicia E.


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Fanicia E.
Ignore grammar, what do you think?

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I can't figure out what your title acronym stands for. But I love your poem, since I'm very cynical when it comes to love. We place so much significance on it, building the idea of love into a big pile of WHATEVER (as your poem more or less shows with good imagery). In the end, I've found it's better to be open to whatever little scraps of love come along & stop drowning out these little pleasure pops with heavy expectations. Your last two lines are the kind that poets wish they'd thought of! *smile* Fondly, Margie

Posted 2 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Fanicia E.

2 Years Ago

Thank you for the kinds words and you definitely have a point! FF&L stands for Family Friends and Lo.. read more



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I usually think to myself that we live in a world that is both beautiful and cruel. Love is out there, but like you, I have only experienced poor imitations of it. To me, it's the hope of holding out for finding something real without the realized manipulations and toxic traits at first dismissed as simple flaws. I try to just live my life and if someone, somehow, in someway crosses that river than I may just take a chance again. Until then, I hope that you will find something similar and I wish you the best. Even if you're not writing (like me) I hope to see you around because your words remind me that my feelings are real in terrible timing and circumstances.

Posted 11 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Fanicia E.

11 Months Ago

Truer words have never been spoke Lavi. It means a lot that you want to see me around. I have some t.. read more
the first paragraph strikes me. you nailed it!

Posted 1 Year Ago


Love can be very complicated when communication is not understood I believe. I love your perspective in the poem.

Posted 1 Year Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Fanicia E.

1 Year Ago

Thank you for the read and I agree completely!
T.S. Sky

1 Year Ago

You're welcome and thank you.


Does love set you on fire?
Make your inner being scream?
Sleep for now but face tomorrow
In a state of constant misery.
These lines says it all. Love can set you on the fire of goodness & make you scream for joy when positively reciprocated. But can make one sleep in constant misery when given to the good for nothing ones who don't actually appreciate good things but rather call good,bad. So my dear,love is everything good to the good,but an invitation to heart break when given to the good for nothing!

Posted 2 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Fanicia E.

2 Years Ago

Well said!
"Is love living with expired hope
And filed away dreams?"

Indeed! I enjoyed reading this and can relate to the questions. Questions that beg for answers in my own heart. What I think is well done my friend.


Posted 2 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

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Fanicia E.

2 Years Ago

Thank you Effie! Sometimes love can come with a sense of complacency, and I feel it's important to a.. read more
"Maybe in another lifetime I'll get a slate that is clean" I often think, "maybe in another life," whenever I reminiscence to deeply and think of what I could've done differently if I could go back in time. But we can't go back in time, and we can either be stagnant and unchanging - or move forward and adapt, seeking our happiness despite the world's cruelty and deepest sorrows.

I crave conversations. I am a conversationalist. I write romance and the perspective I often find myself in. I've had several relationships in the past, and I've been hurt by every single one of them, and yet I still crave companionship. As someone who writes fictions and songs as much as I do, I wonder on my off-days if such a thing even exists in this world. Or is it all just expectations? Is it all just a fallacy we retain to be sane?

But then I remember, despite how many lovers and relationships are to fall or go wrong, there are some who have found something good. When I was, I believe 17, I met a teen mom who was so so strong. She was born and raised in the ghetto of Dallas, had s**t parents, and got pregnant at 13. She's been a mom since she was 14 and the father of her child ran out when she was pregnant. She worked three jobs yet was an amazing person, woman, and mother. I never really understood what a parent's love was for their child until I met her and to my surprise, she found a lover she could trust a couple years before, who was a little older yet stayed with them and taught her how to fight. When asked, she would say about him, "it isn't like you think it is. We just match, even though we're both a mess, we fight together." It was funny too, listening to as she talked about how they got in fights a lot but they loved each other. Every relationship has its fights, so on an outsider's view it looks painful and unreal, but I could see in her eyes as she talked that she found something good. Even though she was younger than me, she was one of the strongest people I have ever met, because she never stopped fighting and working for what she loved.

And I think of her, whenever I'm thinking of love and companionship. How I have to keep fighting for something good and that I have to fight even harder to keep things that way. Your words and your poem speak very true. A lot of love are lies. But, I suppose its like discrimination. We're not all like that - there's just so many that have been in the wrong, we often forget there's still something good left to cherish.

Posted 2 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Fanicia E.

2 Years Ago

The person you speak of has incredible strength and drive, and seems very compassionate. Quests for .. read more
There's such deep thought-rippling emotion here, Fanicia. Your words are so very honest and touch me through because I thought differently.. hopefully. Love's supposed to conquer all, but so often, too often, hope is smashed to pieces. Hugs and all, dear friend.

Posted 2 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

emmajoy

1 Year Ago

Sending, leaving, Sunday smiles and a sisterly hug or two!
Fanicia E.

1 Year Ago

😊 thanks Emma
emmajoy

1 Year Ago

You're very welcome, always. Please, please keep in touch when you can and when you want.
I can't figure out what your title acronym stands for. But I love your poem, since I'm very cynical when it comes to love. We place so much significance on it, building the idea of love into a big pile of WHATEVER (as your poem more or less shows with good imagery). In the end, I've found it's better to be open to whatever little scraps of love come along & stop drowning out these little pleasure pops with heavy expectations. Your last two lines are the kind that poets wish they'd thought of! *smile* Fondly, Margie

Posted 2 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Fanicia E.

2 Years Ago

Thank you for the kinds words and you definitely have a point! FF&L stands for Family Friends and Lo.. read more
Does love set you on fire?
YES!

Make your inner being scream?
For more

Sleep for now and face tomorrow
With new fire and hope

Well that's how it is for me/us
Like your poem


Posted 2 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Fanicia E.

2 Years Ago

Thank you Wild Rose, I like your little twist!

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Fanicia E.
Fanicia E.

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I'm Fanicia, I read, write, design, and create. I'm from Houston, born and raised. I actually had an account here in high school, but deleted when I stopped writing for a while (if anyone knew sisyque.. more..

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