The Girl Who Simply Wants To Love

About discovering my sexuality online

Silver screen uncovered the sheet 

That draped over 

The corner of my heart

That until February remained untamed-untouched

It spans fresh brewed, 

Wildflowers an infinity

Of deep welled fantasies 

Of unfamiliar,

Pulsing energy.

Though late bloomed by some standards,

My first kiss not yet tasted, 

My hips not yet handled. 

 I still press harder

Against the screen, 

Virgin lips of rose gold

Unfold

Among the pixels that capture my 

Youthful rebelliousness.

Yet,

According to the bounty

 That my fathers gave

In all their 

Particularities, 

Their wisdom,

Their truth and right,  

This is no way to behave, 

For I have plundered myself, 

Gave, and uprooted the pure

That would have been 

Golden future

Sweet bud unfolding 

But now it unravels in my mind, 

In my sweaty, scared, 

"I have sinned" hands

That typed the words

My soul sang

The type of things

We cannot understand

Never had I felt this 

The lunging of this racehorse

Never had I grasped

Such egotistic, yet altruistic, 

Strong and sexy reigns, 

Felt this type of

"I need to feel you now beside me, 

Within me."

Pain, 

Never had I 

Felt such oppression

At my inability to understand

This tigress of emotions

That pulled

And purred, 

And raged

Oh, how she raged

For she could not caress, 

The one who begged for her, 

Could not calm his storms, 

Bring him home

To his body, his mind

That life had caused to tumble,

Never had I met 

Until February 

The girl

Who frets and cries for company

Who gives herself away, 

Frivolously, dangerously, 

The girl this far away

from God, 

The girl

Who simply wants to love, 

She simply

Wants to love.

Reviews

[Nolo Segundo]

Congrats on your win! Your work is intriguing, you capture so well the soul of a young girl. (I do wonder, though-- is 'reigns' a typo or a very clever and subtle pun?)

[Julie McCarthy (juliesp..]

beautifully written and very deep thanks so much for entering this into my competition, love it its well written and very thought provoking, thanks so much