IF

IF ONLY..IF ONLY....

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           -SHATTERED HEART-                       

I Wish-I wish I wouldn't fall again
If I'm not sure if someone will catch me
I wish my heart is as hard as rock
So that no one will try to break it
I wish inside my eyes there were wiper
So that the tears won't fall continuously
I wish my mind could no longer dream
If those dreams will broke unceremoniously
I wish I could imprison the pain
Every time my heart plays your memories
I wish I could conquer the loneliness in my eyes
Living there, since you walked away
I wish I wouldn't feel anything
When somebody calls your name
I wish I had not known you
If having you is such an impossible thing
I wish I didn't love you
If loving you just mean fantasy
If there is You…
There is Me…
But an Us is below the horizon
I just wish…

-If- If I can turn back time
And I can change every minute of it
That's the time I first met you
So I can take away my eyes on you

If I can forget some details in my life
As if they're not a so precious part
Those are your talks, smiles and stares
That's always flashing on my mind

If I can control everything
And I can act naturally
I'll control first this heart beats
Every time I remember your memories

But if I can wish and make it true
That is to make you love me too
Because I know, despite everything
I love you so… I hate I do.

-Ngayong wala ka na-

At ngayon, wala ka na nga
Kahit konti wala na ngang pag-asa
Sana lang, matutunan kong limutin ka
Kahit pa matagal, hindi bale na

Di ko na lang iisipin iniwan mong alaala
Di na babalikan mga lugar na nakasama ka
Di na hahayaang puso'y maghintay pa
Pagkat ang gawin yon ay kalabisan na

Iisipin ko na lang ma may mahal ka ng iba
Itatanim sa isip di tayo para sa isa't isa
Pipigilan ang puso na hanap hanapin ka
Dahil alam ko, yun lang ang tama

Kahit di ko alam kung paano magsisimula
Kahit hanggang panaginip pangarap ka pa
Kahit ang puso ko'y kusa namang nagpapasya
Kahit alam kong mahal talaga kita

Ngayon, ngayong wala ka na nga
Malimot ka lang, lahat itataya
At sa panahong sa wakas, limot na kita
Sana lang di mo sasabihing, "Mahal din kita!"

Reviews

[proudmommy]

thank you very much.i had a hard time composing it to be honest...

[PaperHearts]

Wow, this was a really heartbreaking read. I thought that your emotions were expressed really powerfully in this piece, and in a way which made the reader feel like they could relate to what you were experiencing. I've always thought that the phrase 'If only' is one of the saddest phrases ever, and I thought that even more after reading your poem. A thought-provoking write. Nice work,
~PaperHearts