Wanted

I need you. I need you as part of my world because you make me that weak. I laugh and smile more easily when you're around. You hold me and all the pain goes away, and that's f*****g me up inside. I look at you and I remember what it's like to feel happy. I can't help but smile every time you're there at the ferry terminal even if I'm sad. I'm scared, scared to have to be without you. I'm scared to watch things change away from what they were. You have me in the grasp of your hands, quit letting me go. I can't breathe without you. I've fought since day one, and I'm so tired baby. I'm so tired of fighting in circles. I want to be the girl that you couldn't wait with, that just by when you're looking at me I can tell you love me and want me, you're supposed to be my home, where I'm wanted. But I haven't been wanted. I'm homeless, and homesick all at the same time.