My Mother

My Mother

A Poem by Rachel M. Benson

 

Her madness surrounds me…
 
            It engulfs every step of my life …
 
Her disconnected reality show looms above…
 
            It is seeping deeper into my sanity
 
Each new day I hang my head lower…
 
            Closer due her shadows creep…
 
She reaches into the light but for an instant…
 
            The other she is dragging me back…
 
Righteous indignation streams forth hot…
 
            Fire from the dragon’s mouth burning its prey…
 
Religious fervor scraping the pages of the day…
 
            Preaching,
Fire,
Brimstone,
Redemption...
 
Judas turns her face on me when opposition follows…
 
            Past indiscretions come flowing for all to hear…
 
Never just enough
 
Never good enough…
 
            Demands raking my skin to be silent…
To listen,
To fix her problems,
To save
And to smile…
 
I lost my soul along the way…        
 
Recapture a spark a flame within myself…
 
The briefest of moments I found redemption
 
            Forgave one wrong … forgot one moment…
 
Regretted a life time…
 
 By un-caging her shadows…
           
            Fell into a void of cold calculated disconnection
 
Perfected this hole…
 
 Created a second skin…
 
            Cried too many tears
 
Screamed my fears…
 
Frustration sick of her confessions…
 
Her madness
 
            Fascination for delusional incomprehensible insanity…
 
Tainted victimized all are foes
 
Beware of MAN
 
Attracts only obscene caricatures to dance…
 
Created her reality musical show
 
A show filled with her own voices…
 
 
I lost my soul along the way… I lost My mother
 

© 2008 Rachel M. Benson


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I like the structuring too, the slight changings, the jumping. If you were trying to display a slight hint of insanity, it worked.

Posted 17 Years Ago


This is a truly touching piece. Well said and heart felt. Outstanding piece.
Debby

Posted 17 Years Ago


wow, i really like it
i can't nail down just one thing to tell you
so i guess this means it's an over all LIKE
and the over all intensity of your feelings

Posted 17 Years Ago


I really liked how you presented this piece. Having certain words in bold print always helps get a point acros, which you really didn't even need to do, but it made the piece LOOK intresting. You also had some very good word choices here. Through and through, a very nicely written piece. Keep it up!

Posted 17 Years Ago



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Added on February 8, 2008

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Rachel M. Benson
Rachel M. Benson

New Bedford, MA



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I am a wife, a step mother, a mommy to a 2 year old and a 3 month old, a sister, a step sister, and daughter. I am hoping to get back to the one thing that has been about me and that is my writing. I .. more..

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