Two Years

A Poem by Ready To Fall

For you, you might not believe it but it's true.

For two years I've known you.
Year one, I fell for you.
I wouldn't admit it;
I hated you for making me love you.

Time passed.
You didn't realize it,
I fell for you since day one.
It hurt, you were blind to it.

It hurt so much I tried, and succeeded.
I managed to forget my love for you.
I tried to tell you, you didn't get it.
I decided to be cold to you, hurt you like you hurt me.
It killed me to do it, I hated you for making me love you.
There is a reason it was over with her, maybe it's you.

Don't you realize it?
You make me crazy.
I love you.

I've hidden it as much as I could,
Pretended to hate you, be mean;
Even ignore you at times.

You're happy with him,
He's happy with you.
It hurts more than I had ever let you know.

But it was and still is impossible to tell you how I feel.

I've made a thousand mistakes,
I'm not good enough for you.
You have your problems,
I want to be your solution.

I can't admit it to your face,
You're beautiful.
I stutter in your grace,
Falter in your gaze.

I've lied to you about many things,
I couldn't let you know I love you.

It's been two years, yet you don't realize it.

I don't want you to end with him,
He makes you happier than I ever will, but,
I just want you to know I'm waiting,
Praying that you understand,
All these years I've loved you, but I didn't know it.

I love you.