sex in the sauna

why do we stay so long with people we know we won't be with?

why am i still with this guy?

I decline his not so subtly pressured invitation to f**k in the sauna

“Next time,” I tell him, “can’t we just do it in your bed?”

I tell him next time knowing that there will not be one 

I don’t want to have sex in his sauna

the add-on is attached to his parents bedroom

and I like his parents and I dont want to have sex in their sauna and i wont feel sexy

so I tell him next time because it’s easier then saying no

he’ll be fine with sex in the bed if he thinks next time it’ll be in the sauna

next time sex will be in the sauna but actually it will be in the bed or the car or the garage because it’s rare that his parents aren’t home

so i say “next time” with certainty that we won’t be together by the time next time comes

I don’t want to have sex in his sauna

and I don’t really want to have sex with him anymore

but I stay with him for 6 more months and we have sex in his bed and we dont have sex in the sauna

and I like to tell myself that it made a difference