Slipping

Looking in the mirror

Questioning what I can't see

Feeling like I'm dying

My mind turning on me

I know I'm not okay

But where is the damage done

I need something to justify

The wars I barely won

So is this really living

If I don't feel like I'm alive

Can tell that I'm slipping

Don't know if I'll survive

All of this conflict

Tearing up my mind

Attacks me from the inside

No shield to hide behind

I can't escape myself

Though it's what I want to do

Going going going gone

Losing all that's true

So is this really living

If I don't feel like I'm alive

Can tell that I'm slipping

Don't know if I'll survive

Fighting with myself 

So it's impossible to win

Either become something I'm not

Or lose my self in sin

I know I won't surrender

But I'm about to lose

I don't want to stay like this

But I don't think I can choose

The circles underneath my eyes

Bear witness to the nights

I wrestled with my demons

Long after turning out the lights

Tired of risking my life 

In a war I don't want to fight

Cause i am slowly losing faith

That things will turn out right

Author's Note

I don't like this one but there are a few lines I like so I uploaded it.

Reviews

[GreenQueen]

I absolutely love the final stanza.