Black cloud

And now I let go , this is my pain. My way of facing

Too many times throughout my lifetime, too much pain always raining when I try to smile. 

Try to obtain various things just to remain, circumstances beat the best of us as I try to remain calm, that ain't even the half just the part that you grab, now I'm apart of the math as you pardon my back, 

sometimes I gotta subtract just not to relapse then I try not to look back when I look back.

 Black clouds where I looked at no need to keep track, I use to want to get back and be more useful in fact and now I'm use to the act, took more abuse till I snapped

 and now I'm looking at blue skies,white clouds on stand by. Anything in this world for my kids not to cry, 

Times wishing I would die, nights smoking on that lie, drinking whatever is right, not giving a fuk about life, all I seen in this dungeon ain't no need to fight. 

So I pray once in the morning time, pushing on the daily grind. Wishing I could be more, see more before I fly. 

I gotta climb, my heart be having me feeling how I feeling when my mics broke , going up in black smoke, its a wonder that I'm still breathing through these heat strokes, let me ask you this do you feel me or the beat first?

 Or do you feel the beat most and if you do I'll just quench the beats thirst, pinch and see if if it hurts, I think I'm still alive but my heart ain't beating the hearse, but I'll still ride even though I'm beaten and worse,

 my eyes them tears been stopped I done been through the worst. And I dont know when it stops I'm past hurt,

 I'm passing things you see in death ain't nothing left, so why hurt? I been the best believe I put in work, I won't even make this about him f**k it, it ain't work, and yea I'm pissed about so much but I won't lie and say he ain't much, honestly don't even wanna think about him honesty! I ain't me, I rather say f**k it just to honor me.

 But I will say this I love him to death but he ain't fond of me and if I ever see him again I'm a leave, Enough to make you black out, tired of running from a black cloud... ..... To be continued..... Silent poet,

Author's Note

Music to get my pain out..

Reviews

[ANTO]

This is really powerful with great phrases, rhyming and flow silent Poet.
Excellent piece of lyricism. This line really struck me -
"let me ask you this do you feel me or the beat first?" - a direct question to the reader/listener that is slightly jarring but appropriately so given how open the speaker is being here.
I liked this a lot. More power to your pen my talented friend.
:))

[silent poet]

Thank you Anto! So much, truly! I appreciate all you've said and thank you for taking time to read this and giving such a wonderful review.. :) feels great to know someone really thinks well of my writing

[AaronFreitas]

This is an awesome story! Really powerful and loaded with some really good lines throughout. It kept me interested throughout the read which is always a bonus :) Good work my friend :)

[silent poet]

Thank you soooooo, much Aaron :) that was extremely nice! I really appreciate it

[dead scribe]

this is some good stuff :)

[silent poet]

why thank you! I appreciate that. I'm awaiting for your work. blitzed told me I should definitely stay tuned for it.. thanks again

[BLitZeD]

i agree, with anto, best line, props on the whole thing

[silent poet]

thank you blitzed..