headrush

look out at the steady rain

wash down prozac with third cup of coffee

saturday morning - afternoon by now

roll the bitterness on your tongue

faded green fluorescence outside

grey pavement, grey sky, leaves twitch

you need to cut your fingernails

legs ache, head is completely numb

fatigue so deep

neighbour walks dog, beer bottle swig

incoherence of thoughts, actions muted

you stagger and sit down

cling to every sound wave

head lolls, eyes stare, jaw slack

death seems so restful

now that even sleep exhausts you