Afraid

Afraid of my own mind.

Horrible images from an ancient past.

War drums, clanging swords.

Screams, cries of the dying. 

Carrion birds feasting upon the dead. 

Afraid of the emotional wreck I'll be today.

Debilitating heartbreak and loneliness.

The waring inside myself,

Stabbing, clawing from within. 

A raven plucking dead eyes without. 

Afraid I will block out love,

The only thing that keeps me sane. 

Keeps me going, and alive.

Love that I so desperately need. 

Afraid of always being alone.

That I'll never be good enough.

A stolen childhood,

That ruined my adulthood. 

Afraid I wont be strong enough.

To live the life I want.

To have the love I want. 

Before I die. 

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[John the Baptist]

Deep down, everyone has variations of this feeling.