Compromise

I know this isn't exactly what you wanted

It isn't exactly what I wanted either

but it's pretty damn close isn't it?

Or is this just another thing I'll have to lie to myself about?

 

Compromise

What a joke

They say it's always the best answer

Beneficial for both parties

But in reality 

well in this one anyway

Compromise is painful

 

The silent unspoken compromise

Where we're basically just making up the rules

as we go along

I'll lie and say I'm okay

But you and I both know

That deep down

I'm not

 

This isn't something I can just leave alone now

It's eating me up inside

keeping me awake at night

leaving my exhausted,

stressed.

Trying to wash away your name 

From my lips

Wash away every memory 

From my brain

The hardest challenges I've ever had to face

I wish I could hear the same from you

That I was the one keeping you up at night

That I was the one you would stare at across the room

But it was really her

I wish I could say I knew how I affected you

 

But it doesn't work like that

Not in this compromise anyway

The one where I trade you my soul 

for my sanity

The one where I give you every word I could afford to speak

In a final effort to make you understand

 

The only two parties involved in this compromise

Are myself and I

And you are a simple bystander.

Author's Note

I could use some serious help with this one. Any advice you have would be much appreciated!