Good Bye

Probably one of my most raw and unedited poems, so it is probably far from perfect...

Why can't I just scream in your face

that I hate you

that I'm tired of your mistakes and your faults

that I'm better off alone

Instead I just treat it with apathy

I convince you that I'm fine

But I'm not fine

Or at least I shouldn't be

Maybe I've just convinced myself, 

It's easier that way

But no, that's not what I want, that's not right

You're not right

And don't tell me I'm overreacting

I've spent my life in restraint

So let me go wild once, 

Even if that's not in your comfort zone

And the sad thing is

In the end I really love you

I want you and need you

Needed you

Maybe if you had stopped

Seeing only the painted surface

And understood my unspoken words

Aren't lovers supposed to read each other's hearts?

Well maybe I just need

to find another

Good Bye