A reminder.

Have you ever gone through a period in your life where everything bad that could possibly happen has decided to happen at once?

I guess you could say I have been going through a never ending cycle of this.

I just need time, a lot of it.

People say I should go to therapy; I don’t really like the idea of it. Therapy makes me feel inferior to others, like my happiness depends on someone else’s perception of my own problems.

It scares the s**t out of me how quickly things seem to be able to change.

You believe that everything will simply remain the same forever, but that is nothing but a lie you repeat over and over to yourself in hope that it will make you feel better.

I have lost friends I used to consider family, I was forced to let go of lovers I swore to god were “the ones”, and I have pushed myself through fits of sadness that dragged me down like quicksand. There were horrible, horrible days that I thought were never going to change. I began to accept that being depressed was my fate.

It always got easier though; I always wound up feeling happy eventually.

I never remembered that things would become different; it was not even a possibility at the time.

I didn’t realise that my friends would come and go for various reasons even if I held on to the very thread that seemed to be left of our friendship.

I didn’t want every other fish in the sea that everyone kept reminding me was swimming out there, when you walked out on me I thought I would never love anything except vodka bottles ever again. I learned that sometimes it is only love for a little while, and I learned a few things about myself as well as other people.

I guess I’m ranting and going on because it’s just clicked inside my head that the days I can’t seem to rip my body from my mattress eventually end, the sun always rises and it will always set.

I go from a low to a high, and my mood and my feelings are constantly changing like the seasons.

Some days I think I might as well die, and not a thing matters to my but I live, and although it feels as if it takes ages- I turn out to be fine, happy, overjoyed, in love with life.

Nothing lasts forever, no mood or feeling or love or friendship, it never stays horrible forever, life is ever changing. Time heals all, the rut will be filled and the darkness will switch to a light so bright I guarantee that you’ll go blind.

There is pain and suffering all over the world, and without this pain and suffering no one would know the love and compassion that surpasses all.

I do not think that anyone has it easy; to be having a hard life simply means that you are living.

This is life, and it’s alright. Here’s a reminder that you’ll be fine.

Author's Note

This is the first monologue I ever wrote, please let me know what you think :) xx

Reviews

[samparks,sam]

I guess I’m ranting and going on because it’s just clicked inside my head that the days I can’t seem to rip my body from my mattress eventually end, the sun always rises and it will always set.

I go from a low to a high, and my mood and my feelings are constantly changing like the seasons.

Some days I think I might as well die, and not a thing matters to my but I live, and although it feels as if it takes ages- I turn out to be fine, happy, overjoyed, in love with life.

Nothing lasts forever, no mood or feeling or love or friendship, it never stays horrible forever, life is ever changing. Time heals all, the rut will be filled and the darkness will switch to a light so bright I guarantee that you’ll go blind.

There is pain and suffering all over the world, and without this pain and suffering no one would know the love and compassion that surpasses all.

I do not think that anyone has it easy; to be having a hard life simply means that you are living.

This is life, and it’s alright. Here’s a reminder that you’ll be fine.

So nice define the feeling. I appreiciate