just to be of use

I don’t wanna be
just another parody 
everything you see
means so much to me and

I won’t let them win 
and I won’t let them in
I’d give up anything
I’d give my everything and
I wont let them in
where do I even begin?
when I don’t know my skin?

everything you see
it means so much to me
‘know I ain’t immaculate 
no that ain’t accurate and

I can’t let them win
I can’t let them in
I’d give up anything
I’d give my everything and
I can’t let them in
where do I even begin,
beyond this s****y chagrin?!

why do I need to be
something you need to agree
with to accept it
why does it all have to
just to cater to you man? 
or you’ll reject it

I won’t ask you to change
only to rearrange 
my priorities 
I won’t ask you to change 
you’re already so estranged 
to this minority and

you won’t let me in
how long’s it even been?

how can I let them in
when all they see is sin
or just another excuse
just to be of use 
I couldnt even win
it’s not a competition

everything you see
this is really me 
people go and people stay
but I wish it weren’t that way
everything you see
it means so much to me

Author's Note

june 9th 2015