you feel like home

this poem is about leaving someone because you've figured out there not good for you even tho you still love them

i loved you because you felt like home but home felt like loneliness and isolation home felt like giving everything i have to help the people around me but my crys fell on deaf ears home felt like locked bathroom doors and things we didn't talk about . the funny thing about a broken home is you never quiet know what loves supposed to feel like so you grow up and find "love " in the people that feel like home intell the pain in your heart gets so loud you have to believe theres something better so im moving out im building my own home and my own definition of love and looks nothing like you i spent so long trying to make you give me the kind of love i wanted i never even stopped to ask my self if you could if you were even capable because your home taught you things to like how to keep people at arms length and i hide what your feeling they taught you that icy cold stare that will make a codependents knees weak. the thing is the more i heal that little kid inside the less you feel like love and the more you feel like familiar poison and im tired of making myself sick i may be alone on this journey and leaving is scary but i rather leave in the hopes of finding something better than trying to make your poison feel like love im not an alchemist its time to move on and let go.... for real this time 

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[lessa (kenzie)]

It is hard to find out where you are in life at times because life is always moving and changing. Nicely expressed