Harder to catch my breath

Just somewhat of a write I wrote.

I've been fading in the color of yellow,

Harder to catch my breath 

deeper shades blend at my fingertips,

It's all to loneliness inside 

and all my regrets,

Sometimes the self-love 

is the most dangerous of all 

it builds up all kinds of walls.

It's getting harder to catch my breath 

probably because I haven't found one yet.

I've been searching for a apart 

of my once aching, still beating heart 

It fainted on me a little bit a few times 

it left me alone with a lot on my mind.

I haven't found a part of me I lost 

that I never really knew that I had 

all to sit and think that love was the cost

I never thought love could treat me that bad.

Now and then I go searching 

for a peace of mind - that i just can't find 

in time I will slowly feel better 

after I put away all your letters.

Why do I sit here and reread them all 

I don't know, it's just torture on me,

sometimes I want to pick up the phone and call 

To hear your voice again would make it hard to catch my breath.

Author's Note

Thank you if you review

Reviews

[Neville]

We all have doubts from time to time .. some more than others .. I believe that they are an unconscious safety mechanism that serve to add a few microseconds or hours even to prevent us from making too hast a decision ..

I am glad I came here today and feel sure to call on your portfolio again .. oh' and you came highly recommended too .. Seasonal best to you, yours and your pen .. Neville

[poetgurl (Plainly Meg)]

Thank you so much for your words and review

[Neville]

You are seriously so very welcome Meg .. Neville

[mou]

Regret is suffocating and you've painted the anguish vividly. The fine balance between confidence and self doubt keeps us humble always. Beautiful write, Poetgurl
- mou

[poetgurl (Plainly Meg)]

thank you for your review

[mou]

no problem

[June bug]

Sometimes the self-love
is the most dangerous of all
it builds up all kinds of walls.

I like this part, it holds truth, This is such a heart tugging heart write write here, very emotional

[poetgurl (Plainly Meg)]

thank you so much for your review

[Writergurl]

I do know this feeling rather well, nicely penned

[poetgurl (Plainly Meg)]

thank you Brandie

[Kim S.]

love your second stanza, this is emotional read really

[poetgurl (Plainly Meg)]

thank you my friend

[emmajoygreen]

Somehow I think there is a strong doubt in your mind, sending you here, there and all ways because.. you are finding it hard to make a decision or more than one. Who knows that yellow is one of a fleeing being running away from a self-made problem. But sometimes life has to be adventured rather than lose what might be ripe and rosy! Perhaps?

[poetgurl (Plainly Meg)]

Yep! Thank you for your wonderful insightful review. It's nice to know that someone gets it. Thank you for your wonderful review

[emmajoygreen]

If only it was as easy to sort out my own life! :) Keep in touch, when you want, can.

[Matthew Kult]

Sorrowfully expressive, overprotective of self.

Great read

With love

Matthew

[poetgurl (Plainly Meg)]

thank you for your review

[Kane Hagwood]

Part of me wonders if this poem was written to express the dangers of what many consider "toxic positivity." While I have to agree that sometimes positivity can be toxic, when used correctly, it can help balance things out. I feel like the opening line refers to "hiding in all things happy and bright" because of the color yellow being mentioned. A sort of warning not to put on blinders with our positivity, but to engage with it in a healthy manner. Either way, this is a nice poem, and I enjoyed reading it. Thank you for sharing your work :)

[poetgurl (Plainly Meg)]

thank you for your review