Toxic Dreams

I wrote this when I was drunk, so forgive me if it isn't that great.

The amber-coloured liquid
In a deep bronze bottle
Swishes back and forth with a swig
"One shot, I better stop there.
No maybe one more.
Or perhaps five?
I'm liking this feeling of dazed uncare"
Your face makes my knees go weak
But this feeling takes away the sadness of it all
In other cases
My mind would rage with thought
But now
All I want to do is dance with you
All I want to do is hold you close
and feel your touch
And hear your breath beside me
But your breath is shared by someone else
And my feelings break
Cushioned by the drink in my hand
Euphenized by the numbness that it creates
I said I would never get addicted
Now look, I'm addicted.
Strung through to the sanity of insanity
Venting from unrealistic feelings
Give me a break from the disappointment
Let me let go.
A change. A change.
I need a chance to love...
Even if its just this once.
My tears they...
They whisper to me
Threatening to fall.
Army too small
To follow through
My heart screams impatience
I lose faith
Tearing myself apart
Inside-out
Ease this pain
Let me let go
"I'm getting sober again
Time for another shot
Lets drown it all
Douse it in spirits"
Fall over,
Get up
And do it all over again...