Abandon

Wrote this when I was 15, a time that uber sucked for me.

ABANDON
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Fighting for your appreciation day by day
You never notice my reflection anyway
Shadows creep up from nowhere
I'm waiting here until they bleed

I won't keep trying just to hear you say
You're so proud and you always wished for this day
For the shadows now surround me
And I will not hide,
Here is where you'll find me
Will I return tonight?

To shattered dreams, I'm holding on
Trapped in a web of lies
I'm standing between difference
Of what is wrong and what is right
Down broken paths I'm walking
And I know I cannot carry on
I won't be home tonight

Am I supposed to be here alone?
Tell me something new, something I don't know
I'll never be who you want me to be
I've given up on trying to please

(I won't watch the light fade again)
(Darkness will surround once more)
I keep waiting for a sign
Flooded by emotions I fight to hide
Here is where you'll find me
Will I return in time?

To shattered dreams, I'm holding on
Trapped in a web of lies
I'm standing between difference
Of what is wrong and what is right
Down broken paths I'm walking
And I know I cannot carry on
I won't be home tonight

Hell is where I'm standing
And I will not fight
Everything you doubted of me
Deep down, you know you're right.