My Life (Versus Yours)

I just needed to get some stuff off my chest. I tried to save a stranger who seized in a store, but they stopped breathing and I just keep telling myself I did everything I could but...it's rough.

As interesting a web life is

Feeling as though nothing matters

To that breaking point when it does

Words spew from my lips to comfort

Those in need

Do I need them myself?

I can cope, I’m fine

I just do my job, it’s important.

But I break down inside,

Not in front of you, I hope

Keep myself contained

For is my job just as important as your life?

Your happiness?

Your security?

Of course not.

I’ll be late,

I’ll keep you safe

But if you die on me

Was it worth it?

I didn’t save a man today.

I think I did what I could,

...but what if I didn’t?

This is normal

I’m normal

But it wasn’t normal to him.

*Not part of writing*

I'm disabling reviews because I know this piece isn't great. I just needed to get some thoughts off my chest. If you read in the description, I had an unexpected morning and I'm just trying to get through it, so I thought writing might help me process my emotions. Shout out to all emergency workers, nurses, and doctors.