Blind to My Pain

It's a really long story, but I think most of you catch the gist of it

The phone rings,
I know it's you.
My heart goes into overdrive.
My mind filled with questions.

I answer it.
Nervous.
Scared.
Hurt.
Love.

You say
you got caught
sneaking back in
that night.
But you called me
from a friend phone.

You're acting like everything's okay.
You refuse to see
the truth
of what really happened.

Refuse to hear my cries for help.
My screams of pain.
You thought I wanted it?

Tears slide slowely down my cheeks.
My palms break into a sweat
as I tell you
I've been fine.
I got back inside
without getting caught.

I don't know what I'm doing this weekend.
Racking my brain
for some excuse
so I don't have to see you again.

Could I face you?
Knowing you have the strength
to do it again.

You say
you were worried about me.
My heart flutters.
I stay silent.
Flashback.

The smell
of your breath,
of your sweat
of the aftermath.
The taste
of your tongue
from the one kiss
I let you steal.

My fault.
I led you on.
Led you to believe
I wanted this insanity.

You whisper that you have to go
but murmer
that you still care about me
you thank me,
(for what? Enduring the personal hell you're putting me through?)
Before the dial tone
3 words
I never dreamed
I would hear out of a rapists mouth
reach my ears
right before the dial tone.

So confused.
So hurt.
So scared.

1 Lost girl:
Please call if found.
Last seen
in the arms of someone
who didn't ask first

Author's Note

Steven...*sigh*

Reviews

[XxtaintedxX]

I love this too...you're an amazng writer.

[Jessica Marlow]

nobody knws the pain tht follows you everyday of your life if tht happens to you... but i do and its not something you want to live with at times but you knw you have to go on for the ones that you love....great writing

[A Risen Heroine.]

aww.. I felt like crying as I read every each line..
This is so heartbreaking..
I really love it!
It's one of the best pieces I'veever read!
Keep up the good work and thanks for sharing!

~A Fallen Heroine~

[HopelesslyDevoted]

truly heartbreaking... but amazing poem

[disconnectedspirit]

good poem...I do not think everyone is blind to the pain the other is feeling, but when you are only shown apathy to the public, it robs the feeling of sympathy for the other...all I ever had was apathy and denial...good post...