a love letter to the Betrayer

Jesus writes to His Betrayer, a.k.a me being forever emotional abt Judas Iscariot and forever wondering what led Judas to betray Jesus

Judah,
     was Salvation worth 30 silver pieces?
Judah,
     your soul was worth none of them.
Judah,
     you hung yourself upon a tree and
     I heard your soul wailing for me.
     ("God, o God, why have you abandoned me?")
     At the beginning of the world,
     I held you, cradled you in my arms.
     Since the universe was but nitrogen and
     hydrogen and
     helium, I had known you.
     I knew your name, held it in my hands.
Judah,
     "Betrayer" and "Beloved" start with the same letter.
Judah,
     Betrayer, every step I had walked with you, I had known.
     Betrayer, I had chosen -- still choose -- you, knowing.
     I would still call you beloved.
Judah,
     if you had waited three days more:
     "Peace be with you."
     ("I forgive you")
Judah --
    Betrayer, Beloved:
    I love you despite all.