you've always been the brick

can't you see what you've broken

you write all these stories about how you don’t know what its like to break a heart

yet I’m sitting here dying from the inside out

wishing you could bring back the light you stifled within me

do you not count me as broken have i not enough scars

you can sleep soundly because it didn’t go that far

you claim to be broken but its just an act, to lure folks like me into your trap

this trap of affection so you become my whole world

so im lost without you, does that make you feel found

everything got harder

after your respite from grief

to dave me from loneliness you took love away

its better to have lost, they say, but here’s a secret Ill tell

id rather never had met you that have lost you as well

maybe I’m different, not an example from the books,

but you were a boulder crashing down to where I stood

any small progress that i may have made

under your weight all of it gave way

losing you drove me right into his arms

not that you know that story but it tore me apart

the first one who left me, the girl who had none

God i wish i could go back and erase number one

because when i had no one at least i was sure

of what i couldn’t count on

and what was a lie

but you gave me attention and soothed my cries

but losing you broke me, more than just my heart

my feeble faith in people has now vanished from truth

i can’t count on anyone but yet i still push

push so hard into some kind of love

that i push people away and i still have no one

so now i still shatter, that poor windowpane

they glue me together, just to fall apart again

so now sweep me up and just throw me away

and clean up the mess you swear you never made