hunter green

that color will always make me think of you

i let my dreams die and gave up for good

left all alone, this life i understood

i was not meant for love, love was far now from me

ceasing to try

to live and let be

and thus you appeared as my resolve was firm

and tore me apart with no shred of concern

i tried to walk away

i called it quits

but you pulled me in and gave me hope for a chance

a chance i stopped wanting for thought id never have

you made me reopen myself and tore me to shreds

i locked up my heart and threw out the key

and somehow you had found it and unlocked love in me 

only to run and leave me all alone

you broke a should broken many times long ago

a soul that had healed and had accepted this fate

a soul that had coped with the solace of being lonesome

someone who was okay being alone at a restaurant 

someone who could say “yes just a table for one” 

someone who found their own way to have fun

this me who had learned to stay in on weekends

this me who was comfortable having no friends

and you who decided that my heart was to burst

on a whim of your fancy and the green in your shirt

that brings out your eyes and brings me out to you

you tore apart a person who was finally through

you came at a time when love was no more

and tore open the windows and slammed every door

you spun me in circles

and i could feel my head spin

and you set me back down

one more time broken 

you robbed that one chance

of hope thrown away 

god shatter me with my heart

and leave me to break

empty and destroyed by all thoughts of you

i now i wear that shade of green, because its all i have left of you