Asinine

As curiosity dumbfounds me
You become me
You mold my actions
To make them my own
You control all aspects
Of my uncontrol
I’ll do what you say
With your unspoken words
Just don’t go away
That might hurt way worse
Than being forged into
Something I’m not
Someone I feel I can become
But am too disgusted to
In this hour
No, too doubtful; I believe
You may use me
As all the others have
And walk straight out of my life
Like you know I’d let you do
I want to believe
Those three simple words
But somehow they remind me of three other ones
They coincide, but are polar opposites
And for some inane reason,
They mean the same to me
But only when said to me
Because my mind processes them as equal
Both just as painful
And somehow the more joyful
A little more tormenting
But my heart burns
With every fiber of my being
And my head aches
With every thrusting pound of my burning heart
Because I feel the most agonizing
Bliss when I am near you