Dying To Go

Doubtdoubtdoubt
Racking my brain
Driving me insane
I’m sick of this game
I don’t want to play
So just go away
I’m done with this today
Lay me unawake
For my head’s sake
To escape from this pain
That has come again
Out from hiding somewhere deep
Another secret I have to keep
If I ever tell a soul
Then god would even know
All the sins I commit
And how I’m full of this bullshit
It’s all a little lie
So Jesus let me die
I’m sick of this place
And seeing your face
It’s ruining my life
So let me take this knife
And run it down my arm
I swear I won’t cause harm
Slip it by my neck
Leave little marks on my chest
You knew I was sick
If only you remembered it
When I was using you for glee
And you were using me
Well you better just believe
I’ve started to relieve
Myself again
F**k this, I can’t pretend
I’m pulling at my hair
I know I wasn’t there
Maybe it was her
The one who really cares
And let’s me escape
While my mind gets raped
By the torment from all around
Shackle my wrists
Bloody my fists
Bite my tongue
Are you done?
I want to come back
And stop this attack
I deserve this more
I’m the selfish w***e
She shouldn’t have to take
All this heavy hate
I’m the weaker link
My feelings only sink
The high has stopped from here
And the noose is tempting dear
Simply put it so
I’m dying to go