Amongst the PageA Poem by VarinAn Ode to Lyn Heijinian and A Border ComedyAmongst the Page An Ode to Lyn Heijinian and A Border Comedy A deeper flavor makes for a better tasting etouffée I am consumed by its tastiness but would rather die than eat etouffée
infinitely or base everything I taste upon the robustness of this one meal. I learned this from Lyn Heijinian and has she ever eaten etouffée
before? a three day old concoction I didn’t want to waste If I don’t eat it all I wonder what I’m throwing away A Border Comedy is that you hear what I say but you don’t know what I’ve said And I’m not sure what you’ve read but even greater than understanding such absurdity is it is doing and it will soon be done soon. Absurdity seeming so in the impossibility to identify and label guarantee en masse never because it actually is or ever was so that you will ever understand what I am trying to make you to hear. I will never know and perhaps it will never matter Thinking I ever wanted more than face value from life how absurd it is that yesterday I was merely sad But today I realize I was and am sadistic so I am dying to ask Heijinian if this is true because I think that’s what she said and if time flies with the birds its all over the place and I may never be sad again if the face stays in the clouds where it
belongs so I can stop this nightmare where I follow myself in circles and just go realizing I never was sad. murder dwells in every word I read unknowingly she has killed an idle vision of melancholy with a pencil and paper or it could have been a typewriter or maybe Word 2007 and I’ll be jealous if Word 2007 doesn’t give her half the bullshit it
gives me. but that is what I was saying yesterday' wondering aimlessly as to why life doesn’t give everyone else as
much crap and now I realize it can’t.
So in
context I am no
longer upset. I
want Heijinian to know exactly that but she’ll
only understand in context because the monsters of reality idle ghosts
of perception haunting the
between and in between greedily feed
upon the power of words weakening
communication and throttling misunderstanding into more
than one’s comprehension of literature but also the comprehension
of one’s self. Realize
the sadistic nature of the mind to conclude from what it perceives. The spark
of delusion is realizing something from nothing. So I read
her aloud and the words
rot my teeth in their sweetness because in
the context of my reading Book 1 of A Border Comedy in between
my life my childhood the sound of the dryer and the dirty etouffée bowl I found
myself in her words. © 2010 Varin |
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Added on June 7, 2010 Last Updated on June 7, 2010 AuthorVarinNew Orleans, LAAboutI am writing to find that elusive paradigm of expression that might suggest an escape from the sick cycle carousel. more..Writing
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