Reckless Turmoil

Having to realize your shortcomings .

               Reckless Turmoil     
I need no enemy to fell me,
For the only hand at my throat is my own,
I am my nemesis in every disguise,
I never recognize what I love until I cast it away,
And my heart realizes it aches,
For what was....

 

I took you for granted because,
There was never a time,
Your breath didn't merge with mine,
So I didn't know how that would be,
Until you were gone and my heart splintered,
And shattered into a million shards.

 

I would give it all up,
Every reckless show of defiance,
To hold you once more,
You were my solace,
Even when I thought,
I was a law unto myself.

I needed a harbour,
To shelter me from the storm,
That rages in my soul,
Forever violent,never dormant.
Consuming me in its ferocity,
I needed you to temper me.

But I didn't know and ran you to the ground,
Burying you in my turmoil,
Always you were there to pull me from the abyss,
I turned a blind eye to your sacrifices,
Your tears of blood shed in my name,
But now you are gone.

 

And I feel what you felt,
Caught up in a whirlwind of despair,
Witness to the destruction I wreaked,
Sired by my demons that ride me,
Like a wild stallion unleashed,
Stampeding and destroying all in my path.

 

Author's Note

Please be kind.

Reviews

[Rocans]

Great poem, the stanzas literally just got better and better, until it culminated in an excellently written final stanza, enjoyed this thoroughly.
Caught up in a whirlwind of despair,
Witness to the destruction I wreaked,
Sired by my demons that ride me,
Like a wild stallion unleashed,

Those line were epic to me.

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you very much.

[外人 (Gaiji..]

Very powerful, quite a negative atmosphere but wonderfully written,
well done.

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you:)

[MsJewel]

I could feel the emotion in your words and I'm certain this was written from your heart.

I never recognize what I love until I cast it away,
And my heart realizes it aches,
For what was....
Sometimes we don't realize what we have until it is gone. Sad and yet true.
You have touched my heart with the beauty and sincerity of your words.
:) Julie

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you very much Julie:)

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you Julie.

[Sami Khalil]

This was a whirlwind of sad emotions and questioning of the past those stampedes of thoughts that you are running from and that caused the turmoil...A very powerful write...:)............................

[Vidya Bacchus]

Much thanks sami:)

[Sami Khalil]

You are welcome...:).......................

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you sami

[Sami Khalil]

:).....................

[Brittany Zedalis]

This is really good. In my past, I had a terrible habit of not realizing what I had until it was gone. I would purposely sabotage relationships because I didn't want to end up getting hurt. Thankfully I grew out of that. I love this piece.

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you Brittany yes we are our worst enemies sometimes.Your words are much appreciated.

[Pryde Foltz]

Caught up in a whirlwind of despair,
Witness to the destruction I wreaked,
Sired by my demons that ride me,
Like a wild stallion unleashed,
Stampeding and destroying all in my path.

We can, indeed, be our worse enemy. So much passion and eloquence in this write, Vidya.

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you very much Pryde your review means a lot :)

[Arcus]

This brought me to tears... I know the feeling of absolute heartbreak, destroying everything that you once were, and leaving nothing left but a hollow, broken shell. It is the reason that I write. She left me two winters ago, with no direction, and I have been lost ever since. Relatable is an understatement. Well written, my friend. I am sorry that you have experienced this agony, as I have.

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you dear Arcus I am sorry about your heartbreak.Anyways we have to learn from our mistakes and strive not to repeat them.

[Arcus]

I strive for my happily ever after...

[Vidya Bacchus]

As well you should .It might be right arounf the corner :)

[Michael Stevens]

Ah yes, my old friend Regret, I know thee well; a fine poem!

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you Michael :)

[Michael Stevens]

You're welcome; quite!

[Ahena MK]

really wonderful !!!
great pen work ..
ahena
:)

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you Ahena.