Your Best Soldier

You used to drive me mad. No one could play my mind like you. It was like a chess board and you knew all the moves before I made them. I’m a warrior though; I never gave up, throwing and throwing never ending combinations. You admired my persistence, smiled at me and always kissed my forehead.

-You know who has the biggest balls in this room?! This girl right here! Lupita is my best soldier!

Then look at me as if I was something beautiful you were so proud of in front of your men. I just shake my head and smile. I was your soldier. I worked for you and you had my complete loyalty. They knew that since every single one of them tried to lay me. Some just in spite of you.

After everyone leaves you tell me how you hate them and they hate you too. Once again, you’re right. Your girlfriend calls looking for you, but you don’t pick up and text her saying you’re staying at your place tonight.

Then you put your head on my knees and hug me on the waist.

-Lupita, I’m so lucky to have you. 

I stroke your hair and feel grateful for every second of having you so close. Despite your intensity and influence, I knew you. I saw you and I felt you. As if invisible string was connecting us.

What so horrible have I done in my previous life for not having your love in this one?

Reviews

[Jibey]

Confessions of a frustrated lover... it seems. A woman's capacity for devotion never ceases to earn my respect and awe. A man's mistress can be his best friend...can be his slave... but whereas men seem to enjoy a woman without totally engaging their emotions, a woman finds it had to do the same. So here is the story of how it can be... enough to drive any woman mad... while the man thanks his lucky stars for his loving Lupita.

[Victoriana]

As a man you probably see this from a different perspective and you're right, this man always used to thank me for my devotion and in return to take care of me. As for a woman it depends I guess, if you're only sleeping with someone with whom you meet just for that, or you're spending time as friends too...in latter case, the fall is most likely inevitable..:)

[songstress]

while the sub-context is a bit dark, this has to be one of your more sweeter pieces. not in the sense of having fun like I sensed from your other work, but of appreciation and human bonding.

I like the change in your writing with this piece.

[Victoriana]

Thank you very much. It reflects very dark and twisted period of my life and it took a while for me to be able to express how I was feeling :) thank you for support!

[Victoriana]

Also, the bond with this person indeed was the strongest I've ever felt with anyone:)