(70) Demon's Brew

Bar tender, pour me another drink
For within this dank pity I wallow
Fill the whiskey full to the brink
So I can drown away my sorrow

Once, I was a man able to keep my cool
Never one for the rage to over take me
But bad times came and made me a fool
I allowed anger to always leave me empty

Come, I want you to fill my glass once again
I will be the one who decide when enough is enough
I want to swallow up when times were good, back then
Because now this life has become much too tough

Then fury visits me and his glass I hurl and smash
Unsteady on my feet I find my way out the door
People try to keep away, as at them I will lash
So now going home, I find myself crawling on the floor

Once inside, I will open another bottle to begin anew
They try to say I have a problem, and they are wrong
I can stop drinking, I can give up this Demon's brew
Because this man is able to stand and be strong

But in reality, I can not sleep for my spirit is weak
I say I need no one, because I fear my own shame
I want to stay drunk, because then I need not speak
I scream at the world when I know that I am to blame



copyright Chris Smith 1998

Author's Note

I battled with my Demons, I was one of the lucky ones and won.

Reviews

[emmajoy]

A friend, a dear friend who'd been a druggie for quite a while but had grappled his way out, said, 'I did what I wanted because there was no friggin' alternative - then i opened my eyes .. all I have to do now is stay alive.'

He's dead now.

Great and brave writing here .. takes strength to write like this. Keep strong

[LA Lorena]

I like this one a lot Chris, the honesty pours out smooth and neat as the whiskey. Well done, and it's not just the poem I am talking of.

[Tommy]

It can be inherent in some to build up their own prison walls; the sun may shine, but not in the same light as the norm see it. I drank for a lot of years, and I drank a lot, but sometimes it is not drinking that's the problem, rather it is done for the need to sedate, and I can relate...

Great Write Chris!
RLG,
Tommy

[Neva Flores Smith - Cha..]

I say I need no one, because I fear my own shame......excellent my friend

[Lilly Negoi]

many don't win this...

[Sukriti Suki]

a very nice write..happy you overcame your demons. I love the title ' Demon's brew'.

[Aidz]

Self medication to hide the scars within, least they show.

Kewl scribe and congtrats