darkness is my love !

Darkness is my love!
the darkness there always ruling my life.
pulling and pushing me.
telling me when to be happy and when to be sad .
my feelings like a rollercoaster that hardly goes straight.
voices that echo in my head.
words of people i love haunting me
“sometimes i want to kill you”
“you hate the world “
“you only care about yourself”
my heart becomes colder with every word.
they never see the pain in the words they say.
doesn't help i always put myself down.
the blade is calling my name.
always faithful.
always true.
always comforting.





NEW SCHOOL
this place is diffrent and new
kindness is there
but so is hate
i still feel the pain of hurt
still dont understand why
the hate always finds me
the blade's wisper is getting louder and louder
i here it calling "victoria i miss you,i want you"
im still am called ugly and fat
am i that ugly to look at
so fat that people have to say something
ive been eatting less and less because of them
im hungry but know i dont need anymore food
its not healthy i know but im losing waight so it must be working
i just want to sream in frustration on what to do
one more year to deal with their painful words
i know my mom cares but want to live my life
to be free
im 18 almost 19 and feel like im 12
i know she has her reasons but wish she would ease up just a little bit

Author's Note

writerscafe is acting up and wont let me add new writings so im going keep editing this til i can write again

Reviews

[yvo miki]

yall thanks i havent been latly

[Luna Chan]

okay yvo i agree with madison. what ur doing is not right. ur perfect the way u r and i wouldnt change anything about u. the things they say are cruel, yes i know, but dont let that blade win. i havent cut yet and i have been cut free for a couple months now. if i can do it, baby girl, you can do it too. i believe that we can do this together. i swear to u that ill help u through the bad and happy. that's my job. i take pride in it. i love you and i ddont want to lose u ive lost too many ppl already and ive lost u in physical form already but i do not want to see u in a casket. i love you so much yvo. u just don't know.

[Madison]

P.s. Lecturing is my job!!

[Madison]

You can NOT starve yourself, Victoria. You can't be happy if you're starving yourself! It is also unhealthy. There are better ways to lose weight. And you need to get some attitude, and STAND UP to the bullies that are making you feel like this! You are stronger than this! I believe in you!!! If you cave into this, it will show that those people have control over you! You do not want that! And ignore the whispers! That's all they are. Whispers! You are in control of your decisions! Just believe in yourself! Because Hailey, Kyle, Emily, and myself believe in you!

[yvo miki]

and thanks for reading my poem it makes happy to know u liked it

[Coyote Poetry]

I liked the poem. You are wise. Pay attention to people who care for you. I like the honest tone and the strong thoughts in the poetry. Thank you my miss friend for the very good poetry and thoughts.
Coyote