bad memory

if i i had one wish
it would be to have a better memory than a gold fish
i can't remember anything at all
its like i feel i've gone back to learning to crawl
so i can't even run
can't hold a gun
can't climb a tree or have some fun
is it just i'm having a mental block?
or is this going to last for all hours of the clock
i sure hope not
i hope its a spot
in my life i can soon forget
ironic i guess, but its not a regret
its something i have to pass through on my own
and soon find my way to a place i can call home
once i'm finally there
i know i won't be scared
cause the love and comfort will flow like hell
and i can just cuddle myself and feel swell
does anybody even use that word?
or is it too outdated like bird?
don't get that? neither do i.
but writing is still the apple of my eye
don't know if i'm any good
but its not the writing you get from growing up in a hood
cause i know i didn't so i'm not gonna try
why would i want to live my life in a lie
i'm just gonna do what i want and i know i'll do fine
hell if anything i'll get better over time