A Series of Blissful Events...An Unfortunate Ending.

Situations change and when the reason is you, whether or not u have an "accomplice", you inevitably have to disconnect..

Two victims who have victimized themselves...

How did this happen?

Why did this happen?

Could it be left down to simply fulfilling ones desires?...

Desires that should not even be there as they are illegal.

Trauma; something that has now been brought on when it is undeserving.

Guilt surfaces.

Who knew that relations that entail a true emotion behind it would enrage others looking on?

Who knew?

 

I vow to shut myself down;

Disconnect my mind from my body and my heart from my mind and my heart from my body.

Yes, I shall supress my emotions until they have vanished.

Vanished....never to return as these circumstances will not allow it.

It's the only way, I presume.

"Mistakes" have been made...and they will never be repeated.

But these "mistakes" developed this amazing emotion....

Would you still call this circumstance a mistake in that case?....

Maybe.. maybe you still can.

 

Two peoples' "mistakes" merge to form a huge blunder.

We are both to blame.

Where will it go from here?

I know how to back off,

I have just never wanted to but now... I have to.

This has messed up more than we can fathom.

 

Memories of choices that have been made a long time ago.

Now the outside force is thought of as a mere distraction in spectators' eyes.

Scrutiny evolves..now more than ever.

It is meant to linger as it ensures that illegalities are discontinued.

No freedom to love; to feel; to think it,

As choices have prevented such a thing.

THAT is the painful reality of it all.

 

No appology should be brought forward unless it coinsides with another.

Yes, I will return such sorrow,

However, I refuse to express any form of regret as it is non-existent.

We know not what God has planned; surrender it all.

We know not what to do; let go and let God.

Things would not have evolved like this if He did not have a plan for it.

Faith is what keeps the heart alive as there is nothing else to hold on to.

Opinions have probably been dimmed,

So defeat has been accepted gracefully.

 

Confusion.

No stranger to me, has decided to re-visit me.

Now I just desire to disconnect myself from the world and my emotions.

Betrayal in its prime...

Informing those who need not be informed,

On matters that do not concern them.

Anger, now in its prime..

Such a terrible accomplice in dealing with matters of the heart.

I dare not utter one more word of love.

As they shall now go unheard.

 

Such trauma...so undeserved..so unnecessary.

However, with choices come consequences.

Maybe this was a test to test what needed to be tested.

Or maybe this is simply the beginning of such a test.

The result, I long to see as misery is not meant for those who hold true emotions.

Or is it?

As I express this, I have the knowledge that these are only the words that have chosen to be brought forth.

So much more to say on a matter that I was wrong about...

It's not stupidity for I was after what I wanted.

Happiness; love; yes, bliss with another.

The end has brought pain in more than one aspect for both parties....

How unfortunate.

Author's Note

Unbelievable betrayal...how hurtful...how terrible...not needed. Express your thoughts as you have read mine. I do not appologize for its length, neither do I appologize for its format as this is how it is layed out in my heart. My constant switch from 1st to 3rd person only reflects my heart...

Reviews

[THE LOST ROSE]

Well there is a story behind the poem. As a reader we can conjure up our own thoughts but the details of what this poem is about is not there. That sometimes is the way poetry is suppose to be. The creative manner in which you translate the story makes the reader read this more than once. Great job! I enjoy this poem and I feel for your mistake as it has dampend your heart. If Jesus can forgive so shall the other person.

[luke312]

Life brings these things for sometimes but nice poem charms. it's not long if it's from the heart