What Should I Do?

What should I do?

I think I love you

But people throw things at me.

 

Facts or just opinions?

I thought I knew you

Or do I still know?

 

We have been through a lot

Time after time

We have made it through.

 

You are very special.

Very special to me

But I just don't know.

 

So confused, and so tired

Feeling empty of heart

But still trying.

 

Do you love me?

Do you have respect?

Sometimes you show it

Or is it all an act?

 

Are you the main character?

The biggest role of the show?

With your broken promises and dreams.

Setting up for the very end.

 

Sometimes your one way

And sometimes your different.

Two sides to every coin

This you portray well.

 

If only some people could see you as I do.

Knowing what I know

Then maybe they wouldn't judge.

 

I know your not perfect

I know your not some people's dream

But you mean a lot to me.

 

It hurts when I am forced to turn

I try so hard to fight

But I am forced.

 

I don't want to be so mean

But I must do what I have to.

To only make them see.

 

I know your past

And you know mine.

I wish we could both change.

 

Unfortunally I have a feeling

This show is going to end.

But what will the outcome be?

 

We will soon know....

Author's Note

This is different. I realize this I am going through some things right now as you can see. I needed to pour out my feelings.

Reviews

[Dilan Gray]

I really like this. I can feel the uncertainty throughout the poem. The flow is really great. Good poem!

[lovejulez03]

I really liked this. I can def see that your mind is racing and you show your heart in your writing. Well done. Many people can relate I think!

[Jessica Marlow]

nailed it in my case deffinitly. things work out for the good or they just end. its just time to put your big girl panties on an deal. lets hope it doesnt end badly like mine did:(

[KATHY SUE SILLS]

Very good emotional write!

[KAREN]

Great job! Your feelings poured out like rain! Hearfelt write!!

[Madison A. Wright]

its the long goodbye... knowing its coming to an end... but waiting for it to end rather then just ending it.

filled with emotion.. good write.. thanks for sharing!

[{A}shley {B}lack @-;-]

Your feelings are flooding through me and that is always a great sign of a very talented writer

thank you for sharing this piece

100/100 totally faultless

[Drako]

i can relate to these feelings myself right now. this really strikes home for me, as i'm pretty much in the exact same situation (given what i read here). it's a situation that sucks, knowing you have problems in a relationship and everyone else adds to it with negative comments and remarks. the hardest part is for both people to focus on themselves and their relationship, and figure out how to continue

[howlfjdks]

Thank-you for sharing your heart. It can be a very vulnerable feeling. Time will tell the tale. Unfortunately, we have all been conditioned to want to know the story now.

[Ravyne Hawke]

This one strikes me to my core. I've been dealing with similiar issues with my marriage and it never gets any easier. You've penned your feeling so well here, used some beautiful language. This is one of my faves: "Feeling empty of heart" and I love how you've set this up as a play or storyline.. trying to distance yourself from it but still being unable to do so because the feelings are still raw. Excellent write! Thank you for sharing your feelings and best of luck!