This Is Where Uncertainty Lives

In me, there is nothing but second guesses

 

In me

There is nothing

But constant second guesses

And worry

 

"Should I do that?"

"Is that okay?"

"Am I in the right?"

Its always second guesses

 

Im timid to do anything

My heart pounds over reason

And I can't hear anything

Over the sound of my fear

 

What am I afraid of?

Everything.

Anxiety plagues my every move

And determines my every action

 

Every step I take

Is a whirlpool of passive paralyzation

And I stop moving

To capture breath that was never lost

 

The world I see is overrun with inner demons

But the sad thing is

My vision is skewed

The world is fine, but I see otherwise

 

I slam my head against the wall

Screaming so loud I cut through the thick silence

Im crying for no reason at all

My body's numb from never being used

 

This is where I break down for good

This is where my heart overrides rationality

This is where I swallow my pride

This is where uncertainty lives

 

In me.

 

Author's Note

Living with Anxiety Disorder is tough, but I'm hanging on.

Reviews

[amdc101]

Lovely poem, good luck. :)

[Ashley]

i love this and the picture. i saved the picture and going to show people the picture. 100!!!!!!!

[Angie Diane♥&hea..]

This was a great poem. It's so honest and I love the emotions. I know it's hard for you to live with that. I'm glad you are hanging on. I can't imagine what you go through though. I don't have any anxiety problems, but I do feel for you.

[Peter Joseph Swanson]

A great poem!

[MadeCheaply]

You know what, you should watch the movie Charlie Bartlett. It really connects to us. :) Hang in there