hoping against hope

artwork by rutuja padwal

i want to wrap you around my bundle of memories

but like the fuzzy edges of a slowly fading dream

you escape my grasp

i want...no, need... to write it all down

but it seems my pen has other plans

my steady breathing quickens

till it is a sarcoma of fear, regret, and grief

the hum of angst grows louder and more distinct

time to get up

make a cup of tea

hoping against hope 

you will come back to me in another reverie

Reviews

[Neville]

This is a very special poem, & quite different from any other I have read of yours, at least recently dear Lydi**.. without doubt full to bursting with love and hope, but also tinged with more negative understandable emotions that so often accompany loss, or the fear of anticipated loss... a very personal and deeply moving poem indeed..... Neville

[Lydia Shutter]

My Friday night writes do not necessarily reflect the real me, Neville...this one is much more honest. Thank you so much for noticing the difference and for your review. Lydi**

[Neville]

You write so well, it would be impossible to have thought otherwise... virtual hug on its way & true x

[Bluebird]

Love the way your wording captures the physical affects too

[Lydia Shutter]

Thanks so much. Lydi**

[Ted Kniffen]

An excellent bit of writing, Lydi, and so appropriate to your choice of artwork. Memories can last a lifetime,
but they can grow fuzzy and it seems we often look back through a rose coloured filter, good every now and then to be honest with our dreams...they were not always great...nor are they now...but they are sometimes all we have left.

[Lydia Shutter]

Thanks so much, Tim. I appreciate your visits. Lydi**

[Ted Kniffen]

I'll tell Tim you said hello. :)

[Lydia Shutter]

OMG....sorry, I meant Ted....it is a horribly cold, rainy day here in South Florida and I am not functioning.
Please forgive me.

[Ted Kniffen]

I've been called much worse. Cold here too and snowy.

[Lydia Shutter]

UGH...snow....four letter word if you ask me!

[barleygirl]

This is an intense snippet of how it feels to be grinding on an endless mind loop over someone. I know you are gadding about these days, Lydia, & I don't expect a reply soon. Just wanted to wish you great fun & much love thru your holiday season! It's always a pleasure to see you at the cafe & share your notable & much-loved writing (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Lydia Shutter]

Hi Margie! We are home again. It was quite the trip! Still catching up with laundry and mail...might be doing that till the New Year! :) Thank you so much for the review...and for the friendship. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you! See you next year! Lydi**

[Cassie]

aawwww....your pen decided to end this in a sad note.

[Lydia Shutter]

The world is full of all sorts of emotions....not all happy as we know. Thanks, Cassie. Lydi***

[jacob erin-cilberto]

and when we need to write it down and can't---the tension builds, and then explodes.

maybe one more cup of tea...and the muse will let us have our way...and the pen will move.

j.

[Lydia Shutter]

And sometimes the words are stuck in an alternate universe! :) Thanks, Jacob. Lydi**

[Coyote Poetry]

I have become a flow writer. Write, when my mind wants to.
"time to get up
make a cup of tea
hoping against hope
you will come back to me in another reverie"
I do understand the above lines. Thank you dear Lydia for sharing the amazing poetry.
Coyote

[Lydia Shutter]

Glad you could relate! thanks, John. Lydi**

[Coyote Poetry]

I could dear Lydia and you are welcome.

[Ana Papaya]

Lydia, you always write so beautifully and this one touches something deep.
Feels more raw. More real. Harsh reality versus lovely dream.

[Lydia Shutter]

Some poems are borne of fantasy...others from deep visceral feelings. You know that as yours reflect that as well. I appreciate you noticing! Thanks for the review. Lydi**

[Ana Papaya]

:) you're welcome Lydi.

[Julie McCarthy (juliesp..]

the artwork is gorgeous too

[Julie McCarthy (juliesp..]

love the descriptives of the feelings this is a beautiful piece of work very deep

[Lydia Shutter]

Thanks very much, Julie....glad you liked the artwork too. I try to find just the right art to go with my words. Lydi**

[Julie McCarthy (juliespenhere)]

yes i usually choose music and also pics off internet

[Paul Bell]

Don't know if this a lost love.
Maybe one you shouldn't be thinking about.
But they do visit often.

[Lydia Shutter]

Thanks so much, Paul....hey, I'll never tell who it's about! :) Lydi**

[Paul Bell]

you have to. lol

[Lydia Shutter]

nah, my poetic license says otherwise!

[Paul Bell]

Is there a lost shoe involved.

[Lydia Shutter]

LOL you are so funny!