My Suicide, cry for attention

My Suicide, cry for attention 

My mind screaming do it as I pick up my blade.

Your voice flowing through my head saying pick up that f*****g blade you b***h.

Something in me snapping as I hear those words over and over again.

Until I feel better I will never stop this because it helps me with the problems that I am having.

I want all of this pain to ‘go away as well as these stupid voices and the only way that they can go away is with the help of my blade.

Cannot fight the thoughts away about how I feel like I am a worthless person.

Reviews

[Carbon Muse]

Raw and open ... just like the emotions.

We try to dull the pain with pain. We cut our own nose to spite our face. And even though it is better than the alternative, in the end, we do more harm than good. I don't bare my shoulders in public anymore ... I can't. I have scarred them beyond help... Some things go deeper than blades ... more permanent than that, never do what I did.

Hold on to the knowledge that you are not alone. One day, one step at a time ... Tomorrow we will still be here and so too will the feelings. What you do today, is temporary relief but permanent torment ... keep that in mind when the voices call.

[Wannabewriter16]

Thank you for the rewview and I know that I am not alone.

[koulpooja]

We all have a primary purpose that's why we were given this life. The thing is some find it sooner, some later. I have been through time like this so I can understand how you must be feeling but look at me now I'm happy and so much in love with myself. I have recognised my worth and so should you. Let me tell you one thing EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE FINE. HAVE FAITH... Even if anyone or even the voices in your head say otherwise don't listen to them. You are worth every breath you take, you are worth every sun ray that touches this earth, you are worth every rainbow that comes after a storm. Don't let anyone or anything let you down sunshine :)

[Wannabewriter16]

I am so thankful that I ahve started wrighting here because you guys are so understanding and for that I am thankful.

[koulpooja]

We are always here for you dear :)

[Wannabewriter16]

That's so sweet of you. Can I add you as a friend?

[koulpooja]

Yeah sure...that would be my pleasure :)

[Raeven]

If you hear these voices, they should make you MAD. That's the way it was for me. I was tired of cutting, and I was tired of trying to get better. I just let it all go and got mad. I used the anger as fuel, and the fuel was thrown into writing, reading, music. I listen to hardcore rock because the messages they say through the lyrics are what I feel, and so the lyrics relax me. I knew I wasn't the only one out there going through stuff, and that pissed me off. Life is supposed to be decently lived, so why are teens and kids going through this? Made me mad. So get mad. Pull yourself out of this stupor. You can't rely on anyone else to do it for you.

[Wannabewriter16]

Thank you so much and you are so right I think that I will do just thank. Thank you for the review.

[B]

We all have our ways of dealing with problems
I found the only way to do so
Is find a quiet room
Make a cup of tea
and read a book about someone else's journey
someone who suffered more than you
watch how they have grown out of it
and you will be inspired

[Wannabewriter16]

You are very right about that. Thank you for the advice and review!

[jfdkslafnas]

An emotional, heartfelt poem to say the least. Talk to someone. Let your feelings out through words and writing. I myself have gone through terrible times like these. Never give up. You are strong

[Wannabewriter16]

Thank you very much.

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Words of hurting soul. Very brave and honest. I realy like it. JUST PLEASE DONT DO IT WE ALL NEED YOU I HOPE YOU ARE FINE

[Wannabewriter16]

Thank you very much. I am trying to stop but it's hard...