Afraid.

This is yet another late night messy free verse. I feel that the style becomes the oddity that is my thought process. "Afraid" is about a recent betrayal from someone who I thought was my friend.

Day after day.

Nothing ever changed.

Until you came.

But you weren't prince charming,

Oh no.

You were his

Perfectly imperfect

Counterpart.

 

Nice aesthetic I suppose.

Decent looking.

Funny.

Overall a great guy

On the surface.

Only

On the surface.

I’ll admit that I showed interest in you.

I wish I hadn't.

But I did.

Even so,

That gave you nothing.

No right.

No anything.

Nothing to make what you did

Okay.

My smile,

My past,

None of that was an invitation

To lock the doors,

Ignore my words,

And do what you did.

None of that was me

Asking,

Begging,

Wanting,

You to take advantage of me.

To make me frightened of being alone,

To make me trust a little less.

Love a little less.

 

Sometimes I think:

What if I had said this?

What if I had done that?

Been more aggressive?

Assertive.

Insistent.

Anything.

 

But that notion is ridiculous.

Absolute bullshit.

I did all of those things.

I made them all clear.

And the fact that I tried,

That I said no,

Should be more than enough

To justify whatever response

I might have.

Whatever feelings.

Whatever actions.

 

I am not the one who,

In this situation,

Should feel the guilt.

That role should be played

By you.

It deserves to be played

By you.

 

You

Should feel the guilt.

You

Should feel the pain.

And you

Should be

Afraid.

 

Author's Note

More of what keeps me up at night, written... at night. Go crazy with reviews, the more the better.

Reviews

[Confuser]

Wow, profound ending, and you should be afraid. I enjoyed the writing very much. You must know you are a talented writer, the emotions continue, in an angry tone building to the end. I cannot help but like a poem more, when I like what the writer is saying - the message and to relate, as if I am the character and I could and would express myself to someone, like you have done so nicely. Thank you. Well done.

[floraleverything]

Thank you so much Confuser! I tend to get very carried away in writing, so I'm glad it works out so nicely :)

[Confuser]

I wish I had more time to read..write...listen and learn, but balance will come. Thank you.

[Belle]

This is incredible! It is an angry piece - the atmosphere of rage is very well-constructed - but what breaks my (and any other reader's) heart is the sadness and betrayal this evokes. I think the stanza beginning: "Sometimes I think..." is especially effective due to your use of repetition; it really emphasises the point. And, like Confuser, I loved your final line. It's an intense and powerful poem, but that line was perfectly executed. It felt like closure for the character.

[Gee]

Send this to whoever inspired the poem and they will be afraid.Very good poem to read

[floraleverything]

Haha I'm afraid I'm not quite this bold in real life.