Who I Am

Jinney

Do you happen to know what it feels like to not have total and complete control of your mind?
No, I don’t suppose you do. But I can tell you, it’s hell.
It feels like your sharing yourself with someone else and in a way, you are. Sometimes they just take over, making choices for you, saying things you wouldn’t. To the outside world it’s hardly noticeable; people I’ve grown up with just take it as a change in mood, their used to it. So am I, I guess.
They say I’m a shy, quiet girl, but when I get going, I can bring the whole party home. None of them realize its two different people their talking to.
The thing is: the girl everyone finds hilarious, the girl who does crazy things without care of what others say, and the girl who can meet someone new and instantly be friends - is not me. Not me at all.
I am Jinney, the quiet red haired girl who writes poetry and listens to the oldies country station. The only people I’m not nervous around are the friends I’ve known forever. I love taking walks in the woods. And I like doing dangerous things because personally, I wouldn’t care if something went wrong and I ended up with a toe tag. Because it would mean I would no longer have to share my body.
If I were dead, I’d finally be alone.
I’d be rid of him; of the boy who is part of me but different all together.
Sam




Sam

Glimpses, wisps, whispers... that’s all I get. Only when I push and pull at the string that faintly attaches me to the real world, do I get a taste life. But it’s only a lick, not the mouth full I so often crave.
I can feel it, the presence that pushes me back. The thing that’s taking my place. I should be the one in control, not her.
She disgusts me, doesn’t even use her life. The only excitement I ever feel coming from her is when she’s about to do something stupid.
I can feel that the danger is directed at me, I can feel how she hates me.
She created me, and now she hates me.
Which makes me hate her all the more.

Reviews

[Kyle]

This is a bit chilling......wow..

[Team_Jaward_Gale]

wow nice word choices well done