her orders

her orders

A Poem by bella
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about my abusive stepmom

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When I look in the mirror I see
Everything she told me
She told me to be pretty
So I braided my usually uncontrollable curls
She told me to be skinny
So I didn't eat
She told me to be more lady like
So I crossed my legs and kept quiet
She told me to smile and stand up straight
I did as I was told
She told me my green eyes should be blue
So I stared into the ocean
I followed every command
Even when she was plain, fat, boyish, slouched, and frowned.
And even had green eyes
One day she told me to be happy
She told me ugly green eyes need a sparkle to them
I did my best but I couldn't be
Because her green eyes, lost their sparkle years ago
And I wondered who's orders she obeyed


© 2017 bella



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JC
A good insight into perception and that realization that you don't have to live up to others expectations.

Posted 9 Months Ago


I think this is a powerful message of how it can feel to be criticized constantly as a young person. I always love good specific examples of the way things are done & said, as you've showed us the hurts, actions speak louder than words, as we see this abuse of non-acceptance unfolding in your poem. I was thinking this could be your stepmom but also it can be our own inner voices after we've lived thru childhood abuse, the voice goes on & on even after the bad parenting situation is long over. Verbal abuse is every bit as damaging as physical abuse.

Posted 11 Months Ago


If beauty had a price, everyone would buy it, and im glad it cant be sold, because its already there. Beauty sits inside a person just waiting for that person to realize what they are doing. And when you find it, you will too see. Let no one change you.

PS. I think curly hair is beautiful!

Posted 11 Months Ago


Very good, You put a lot in to this its really good!


Posted 1 Year Ago


I loved it! This is the first poem of yours i've read and it's amazing! You sound to be a beautiful writter! Hope you get even better!

Posted 1 Year Ago


bella

1 Year Ago

Thank you so much!
This poem is so deep and absolutely amazing. :)

Posted 1 Year Ago


This is an amazing and powerful poem. I love this so much!

Posted 1 Year Ago


I will be honest, this is one of the most beautiful peom I have ever read here , i really love it 😊

Posted 1 Year Ago


bella

1 Year Ago

Aw thank you
Nora

1 Year Ago

My pleasure 😊

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