Why Can't You Love Me

dated 11/26/07

 

Why can’t you love me like I love you?

Why can’t you see through the mask and the glue?

Why can’t you see the girl I want to be?

Why can’t you see her bursting out of me?

 

I didn’t mean to let you get so close you could see

Inside me to my vulnerability

You didn’t mean to let yourself in

But I didn’t think it would hurt in the end

 

I thought I had to be so fake around you

That you wouldn’t like me if I were true

But by letting you in I let you see

Right through my lies, right through me

 

You didn’t let it all slip away in this bend

You didn’t hate me because I tried to pretend

Instead you offered me friendship be lending me your hand

I took it not knowing the demand

 

Everyday it took its toll

Without you I couldn’t be whole

I had you and yet I didn’t have you

I couldn’t figure out what to do

 

I didn’t know if you just pretended not to see

Or if you were truly blind to all the clues you received from me

You kept your door locked so I couldn’t see

The way you truly felt about me

 

You got so close I felt you were part of my being

Until the end I never ended up seeing

That we were always going to be friends and nothing more

that’s what I thought was behind your door

 

My heart was shattered

My entire being battered

Who are you? Who am I?

Why did I have to die?

 

Why couldn’t you just let me see that I was part of your being?
Why was I so blind that until the end I never ended up seeing

That with each day you loved me more and more

that’s why you couldn’t attend my funeral

 

Why couldn’t I see that you love me like I love you?

Why couldn’t I see through your mask and glue?

Why couldn’t I see that you loved the girl within me?

Why couldn’t I just accept life and let be?

Reviews

[Julio Cesar Ruiz]

Wow...so much is said, so much is felt. its hard not to get pulled into all the feelings, especailly if you've experienced them before. What you wrote is something that almost everyone has gone through, some with good outcomes and some with bad. and you never know what to do until its too late. But the best thing we can do is try again and never giving up.

[Phoenix]

My God, I can relate to this! 5th & 6th stanza really hit me. Except I think you have it figured out a bit better than I do...
This is structured so well. It's so easy to flow through and just take in all the emotions and thoughts you put in. Great work.