Kaitlyn

Well, Welcome to my life. My name is known to almost every person in my High School. My name probally rolls off at least five b***h's tongues everyday. Almost every person who knows my name, hates me. But I give up on trying to be everyone's friend. I lost trust in almost E V E R Y O N E. bestfriends is eleven letters. oh, so is b a c k s t a b b e r. Highschool has been the best year of my life, and I'm only a freshman. Yeah; so I lost almost all my good friends, but yet, I've had the greatest time of my life. I don't know what I want anymore, or who. I own an acoustic guitar, it was my father's. I can't play it, but there it is...behind me...taunting me. Hate is a strong word, and that is why, I only hate ONE person. Her name will stay unknown for now, but I'm sure everyone knows who it is. She has ruined my life numerous times, and tried to steal many of my boyfriends. But what can you do? S***s will be S***s. My music taste is different then most people's you'll EVER meet. What kind of music do YOU like? Yeah, I like that kind too! So; Drama sucks balls, but it loves me to death ! If I had to say who my best friend was, I'd be sure to say Drama. :] actually, I have Three Best friends, and two sisters. Elton is my best friend--above all. Jericka is my best female friend, and Joshua blue is my best guy friend, period. Susan&Trisha are my unblooded sisters. Besides susan and Trisha, I am in fact, an only child. Get's boreing sometimes tho, but I have my best friend drama to keep me company<3 So maybe people hate me, okay, maybe A LOT of people hate me. But do you see me giving up? Do you see me killing myself, or hurting myself, just because half the school hates me? No. Because honestly, they only hate me from what they've heard. They don't know me, and they don't want to know me. Truthfully, I'm fine with that. But if they don't have the time to get to know me, how is it that they have the time to sit there and make fun of me? I don't know, but apparently, they find the time to. Hate is easy, Love takes courage&Trust me, I would know. I've been heart broken twice, and found myself falling right back in love with the same person. I've had a million boyfriends, I can't even tell you a straight number anymore. I regret dating so many. I understand, me regreting it, still doesn't make it right, but what can you do? I fall for guys way to easily. I fall for my best friends. Maybe it's safe, to just not be best friends with anymore guys. Or it'll end horribly. But the thing was, I wore my heart on my sleeve and Now I don't. I no longer have my heart. It was given to the only guy I want it to be with. You hear a heart beating in my chest? Well, It's not mine. It's his. I have been deviated by destiny, through this abhorrent life of fifteen years, which forever grows with time. I'm quite aware that I appear immature; I'm told quite frequently. Over the past couple of years, I've altered and modified myself more than you could ever understand, yet I haven't changed at all.I dont think im that hard to understand im just a person. I think i waste my money on useless s**t. You get me angry enough, i'll scream at you and you WILL hear my southern Accent. When i'm moody, I eat like a HungryHungryHippyWearingPurple, and I obsess over my myspace&My looks. Im a nice person believe it or not. When i get judged i laugh. If i dont like you, you'll know.I I love walking in the rain. Laying on the grass and looking at the stars may just be the best thing ever invented. I am outgoing. I'm not changing for anyone but myself; if I do decide to change, that's on my own terms. I have a hard time opening up to people and I barely trust anyone. I'm highly afraid of getting too close to people. I'm still figuring out who I am and who I am willing to be. If you feel the desire to denounce me behind my back, go right ahead. Your feeble insults will only make me laugh. At least I'll know you admire me enough to mention me in the first place. I've gone thru so much growing up. You may think your life has been worse than mine, well I bet you each time you tell me something horrible that has happened to you, I could come up with one WORSE thing that has happened to me, and I will always win, Always. I'm one of those girls you see,with their eyes&Finger glued to the buttons on their phone, and then running RIGHT into a wall. Texting is my obsession. Along with many other things. I've lost trust in everyone, but a few. &Truth is, I don't hate people, unless you give me a reason to. You want me to love you? Then give me a reason to. I'm done tryingg with everyone. I'm not here to impress you. You either like me, or hate me. This is who I am, take it or leave it. You want me in your life, You'll find a way to put me there.