![]() Some Thoughts…Some Questions Unanswered!!A Chapter by Arielle Ann![]() Sometimes some thoughts fog up my mind...here I tried to organize them and pen them down![]() Does it ever happen that you
always trust people very easily and then also get hurt frequently? But once a
person comes close to you, and then you begin to develop a sense of insecurity,
afraid that he might break your expectations and then you fear from trusting
him completely? Everyone perceives the demon in an angel but how many
of you perceive the angel in a demon? It is our perception only which can make
the world a heaven or us only who can turn it into a living hell. Because the
Judas and the Jesus are present in all " it is us who are the judges- that do
we see the messiah or the thirteenth disciple of Jesus who betrayed him for
thirteen pieces of silver. It’s strange that I always see the angel in a demon;
whatever the world may say, my perception is what I believe to be true and I
always trust my sense of judgment. Doesn’t it ever happen that you
are very sad about an event which is for store in future, e.g. A departure or farewell etc? Your surge of
emotions is strong, despair increasing as the day draws closer ,but at that
very moment you become devoid of all emotions…maybe you laugh…crazy? Mad?? Why
does this happen? Maybe the emotions reach such an intolerable limit that the
heart fails to take more load and becomes depleted of the grief threatening to
engulf it…maybe emptiness due to
incompleteness of unendurable pain! Too complex!! Brains with high frequency cannot concentrate for a
long time at a stretch over a single task; he therefore needs 2-3 tasks
together at hand, so that once he gets bored with one, he can switch back to
another and again return to the old one. …MULTITASKING!! This happens because
they give so much effort over the task at hand, after sometime they get exhausted;
so they need relaxation or maybe change; moreover they have difficulty in
remembering something for long periods, because their active brains are always
overfull with ideas, one idea over writes the other! Such brains always need to
be occupied…kept at leisure, they travel to unreachable heights; so these
brains should be always engaged in constructive stuff; because these gifted yet
eccentric people can be the most destructive too….AN EMPTY MIND IS A DEVIL’S
WORKSHOP right?? When we say a person reaches
maturity, can we be sure that he will never take any wrong decision? You know
what, the person with the deepest thinking and matured outlook towards life can
at times take such an impulsive turn, the world gets shocked and speechless!!He
himself may be stunned, never being able to explain why he did that!!This
happens when emotions over shadow your thoughts, your vision is clouded; your
heart and brain are not in synchronism " it is a surge of restlessness and
depression that makes him take such an action; i.e when the brain is blank and
devoid of the ability to think…But alas none can understand…What has been done
can never be undone! Emotional people are prone to take the worst decisions. Someone that day said that he
had lost all his hopes- in the materialistic world he had no one to turn to-
life which was always two steps behind him had played a dirty trick….now he was
a changed person; Once the most gifted and the subject of envy for all had now lost
all the zeal towards life, vulnerable, quiet and subdued. Cheap people with low
morale are always in the quest of hurting the ones they envy, but then should
you submit to their desires? Should you give them the pleasure? Never… when
there no one to turn to you can always turn to yourself. Rediscover your
talents, engage yourself in your passion, leave your shell and come out to a
better world, communicate with new people, develop a broader outlook and
contribute your efforts towards helping in making the world a better place.
Your mind will then be upgraded to such heights that all small people will
appear to be trifles. Dogs always bark, but do we need to look back at them???A
setback in life should never deter us, it should be a challenge and one should
never falter. Once a man discovers himself, the world will know him; he will no
longer be lonely, his work will be his companion, his strength, urging him
forward. The confidence then gained is so inspiring that one day he will stand
on the topmost rung and say-“How can my past or those mere people pull me back?
Look where you are and where I am today”….That is the moment of completeness, self
satisfaction and contentment …when you discover your true self….your greatest
strength! Never disclose your weakness; people don’t understand,
they sympathize, pity you and may resort to taking advantage of your
vulnerability. Releasing of emotions is necessary but in front of chosen ones. Do you ever understand someone
even without him saying anything? When you do then you have found your true
love! Some people consider themselves to be very strong; they
are indeed strong, confident to tackle life and handle its problems alone. Do
you know why they are like that, never needing any support, never lonely? They are
few of those blessed people who always carry someone with them…within them,
giving constant strength, security and companionship, i.e. they are two but one…they
don’t need anyone else; they are the actual winners, the true survivors and the
strongest.No one can make them falter….Instead they can move on with greater
confidence, even spreading the aroma to others. One lifetime is not sufficient
to understand one’s true self, then how do you expect to recognize others? A
man’s psychology is the most mysterious and the most complicated on earth! Writing helps an introvert person in expressing
himself; his thought process gets organized….It’s amazing, if you write out
something releasing your closed thoughts then you find it much easier to
express it verbally in front of someone too! This might not have been possible
earlier, but now it is...Believe me, it helps, just give it a try once! Lack of emotional closeness demands
physical satisfaction, because such people don’t” make love”, they “have sex”! “A person we see is what he wants us to see”; this has
a meaning of much greater depth than what we apparently understand. What I am trying to say is, some of us think
that we have a good sense of understanding human behavior and psychology. What
we forget is, we can understand only what the person is showing us directly or
indirectly. Mere people understand only what the other is expressing externally
(i.e. directly); but people with a deeper outlook can understand what the
latter is trying to express internally, what he expects us to understand
without his saying it in words. But all my dear friends, however much you try
you can never understand that facet of the other which he has decided to
completely hide from us; which he is determined never to disclose; because we
humans are best at deception! Women are very curious….when
someone says something and then leaves it to linger in the middle making the
suspense intolerable, curiosity drives the hell out of her…and she goes on
nagging repeatedly to disclose the secret. You know girls, how you can make the
other spill the beans? If he says “I don’t want to say “, then you simply reply,” Well I will not
force you”; then he will think you not to be interested and to gain your
attention once again, he will himself speak out! Because he too had wanted to
share, else he wouldn’t have started the topic at all. It is just that he wants
to increase your inquisitiveness thus drawing more attention and care to him;
but when he sees the reverse reaction, he himself wants to disclose what he had
in mind! “It’s not necessary that you understand as you wish but
it is sufficient that you just wish to understand me” The person you love the most has
the capability to hurt you the most and it is then when you hate him the most! Love is strange and one sided love is painful! Has it
ever happened that you love someone, but you don’t get back the same? You
console yourself with an imaginary vision trying to escape from reality,
because at this time you don’t have the ability to think, your heart controls
the brain. But a time always comes when this pretence to yourself breaks; you
become aware that you are cheating yourself; the continuous hurt and pain turns
into resentment and anger. You become irritated with yourself that “Why did I
have to surrender my ego in front of someone who gives a damn to my emotions,
my feelings, my selflessness?”And this is when everything is over!!But looking
from the other side that was love…Is their any place for ego in love???So
complex…and a paradox unanswered! I got this saying from the web and loved it…..”She will
chase you around for a while, but there is going to be a day when she is going
to stop running in circles around you. She is going to get over you and at that
very moment you are going to wish, if only you had let her catch you!” You know girls always consider
that person to be her life partner who is superior to them in all respects.
They may dominate and all but a guy who is hand packed or inferior, submitting
himself to the whims of his girl loses his respect in front of her…She then
can’t be controlled, she looks at him with eyes of pity….a guy should never
show dependency on his girl (Of course emotional dependency is different)…she
again sympathizes…All girls subconsciously want their man to care, to lead;
i.e. in short superior and proud…but many don’t realize it and then wonder “why
am I not satisfied?” Again you know what
guys, when your girl asks you something, say what she wants to hear, because
she is content with that, she never expects that in reality(maybe if you go to
really do that, she will herself feel sorry and stop you);it is only your care
and support that she secretly desires. Sometimes when she fights and hangs up
saying she doesn’t want to talk, call her, because she secretly is waiting for
you to call up yourself. Sometimes when she says GO, you wait and hold her
tight, she actually wants you to stay. When she goes, call her back, because
she is waiting for your call! When she sees your ex and recalls her ex in front
of you, don’t get angry, because she is trying to make you jealous craving for
your attention! When you describe your best friend, who is a girl, describe her
as ugly and incomparable to her (although you secretly don’t think so) because
it makes her feel secured; she criticizes your friends out of her jealousy, her
insecurity, her possessiveness which all arises out of her immense love for
you. When she wears something exposing, cover her up, she seeks your possessiveness.
And when she says “I don’t need anyone”, she is waiting for you to say “Don’t
worry I am there even if the whole world is against you.” Strange is a woman’s way of expressing her
emotions, difficult to understand her emotional swings, coz one has rightly
said “The ocean’s surface is always calm but the turbulence is invisible to the
external eyes, unless you dive deep to seek it!” Love is truly complete when there are no unfulfilled
expectations from either side! © 2010 Arielle AnnReviews
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2 Reviews Added on July 30, 2010 Last Updated on August 10, 2010 Author![]() Arielle AnnBangalore, IndiaAboutI thought I saw the rainbow, I believed I viewed the sunshine, I conceived the breeze with promises anew, With a faith that was firm and prayers divine. But; Why the clouds obscure so lovely th.. more..Writing
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