Drunken Ways

Drunken Ways

A Poem by Andrew Nelson Stewart
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The loneliness while in the background everything starts to fade and the feelings of elsewhere.

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The killing days

   Take it strong

      While pain lingers, 

         I ask for another 


  Feelings drowning 

I still feel the pain 

sober or not.


               Bearable nights will play hard to get,

                         as lonely nights prefer the cold ice 

                                    Drifting among the dizziness 

              


                This room is rainy.


         Always full and empty

            somehow you can catch me in between.


Catching dreams pretending I’m asleep

 resembles your eyes scanning the horizons 

For new beginnings


My eyes crossing Madness was a new thing to do


Yet we still drink hoping 

 wishes meet our expectations 

thinking about times 

fading away like colors of a recent fallen feather.


Letting some out has done nothing more than made my vision blurry 

Scaling my emotions did nothing

I’m just trying to wake up


© 2020 Andrew Nelson Stewart


Author's Note

Andrew Nelson Stewart
What you see or feel while reading . hope you enjoy spent all day trying to write and manage something.

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What I love about your poem is that it feels topsy-turvy, the same way it can be when a person is in the habit of escaping -- whether it's thru booze or religion or sex -- an excess of anything used to escape the natural everyday pain of living -- this is what your poem delivers in spades. It's like trading the everyday madness of living for a different everyday madness of addiction -- both bringing a similar dissatisfaction, one hardly distinguishable from the other (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

Posted 3 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Andrew Nelson Stewart

3 Months Ago

I appreciate your review, just follow the madness and you might just escape what madness already is.



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I was a drinker for 36 years.
"Yet we still drink hoping
wishes meet our expectations
thinking about times
fading away like colors of a recent fallen feather."
The above lines, I do understand. Drinking never fix anything. Just made my vision look at life with confused eyes. Outstanding poetry shared Andrew.
Coyote



Posted 5 Days Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Andrew Nelson Stewart

5 Days Ago

I stopped years ago the weird thing is only started when I turned 21 yes I know good boy haha it's h.. read more
Coyote Poetry

2 Days Ago

I drink a shot on a rare occasion. You are welcome Andrew.
And this is why I dont drink lol. Holy cow!..yet, you caught me on " always full and empty"...interesting. yes, how full we can be in this life, and yet...feel so empty...lonely.

Posted 2 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Andrew Nelson Stewart

5 Days Ago

Loneliness speaks highly yet wrote this when caught up in that feeling like a fly in spider webs. Bu.. read more
Wow, lots of great images to capture the pain of...whatever it might be, the need to escape it, and to somehow force reality to match our expectations. I'm beginning to sense that that's the ultimate tragedy of man.

This is a great, skillful poem with real substance.

Posted 3 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Andrew Nelson Stewart

5 Days Ago

Pain is essential yet at the same time makes us fearful sometimes vices are necessary to curb things.. read more
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Whatever vice propels us into another day (sometimes needed) comes with blessings and banes...I understand this piece and appreciate the rawness of it, such things should never be swept under the metaphorical rug but rather spoken loudly, to know you don't go through life's battles alone is sometimes enough as well...powerful piece Andrew...

Posted 3 Months Ago


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Andrew Nelson Stewart

5 Days Ago

rawness is key just let it out cause soon we figure out starving feelings will never do cause they n.. read more
I really enjoyed this, it hit home for me. I admire your will to keep going, regardless of the pain. I know struggle with this pain too, and more often than not find myself drinking just to soothe my mind to sleep. Its difficult, it's a rollercoaster of an experience, both good and bad moments that I can remember involved drinking. Nice work (:

Posted 3 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Andrew Nelson Stewart

3 Months Ago

The struggles paints a picture this is how it will always be and "how the show must go on" as whitma.. read more
Broken.

3 Months Ago

Yes I tell myself this everyday. The show must go on!
This is quite an emotional piece of work you created! I enjoyed it a lot.
I can understand the constant urge to "drown" any pain/sorrow one must feel, yet have it never go away once the bottle is empty. It's a thing that gives us the liquid courage to let go and forget our thoughts/feelings of anything negative in our real lives...but when we get sober, it all comes crashing down at once and it's not an easy thing to deal with. I can relate to this struggle...magnificent job!

Posted 3 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Andrew Nelson Stewart

3 Months Ago

“Frankly, I was horrified by life, at what a man had to do simply in order to eat, sleep, and keep.. read more
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A part of us is ever watchful, ever sensing what goes on inside our heads. Catching one's dreams pretending to be asleep feels to me like trying to trick oneself into letting oneself fully into the otherwise remote world of dreams. I am always intrigued by our bid to intrude upon our own thoughts. A very interesting poem!

Posted 3 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Andrew Nelson Stewart

3 Months Ago

Thanks again Sir... Yes part of us wants to always sleep while the other knows it's not that very re.. read more
Catching dreams pretending I’m asleep
resembles your eyes scanning the horizons
For new beginnings

This part is just so awesome here, very vivid imagery here. Amazing

Posted 3 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Andrew Nelson Stewart

3 Months Ago

I can get lost if I'm in the imagery landscape looking for thoughts to pull out haha. Then I lose th.. read more
the back and forth tug of war and staggering, wandering of our thoughts as we try to drown our sorrows, ultimately getting us nowhere. we try to ease the pain of what's troubling us by taking another swig but that just gets us more drunk and confused. all sorts of feelings and emotions begin to emerge. i felt chaos and the process of becoming more and more drunk. we want to pass out and drift into sleep but we're not at the point just yet. we think it holds the answer or want it to provide an answer, a way out but it does not. there is no out (especially this way), we've only delayed sobering reality. excellent description of intoxication i would say ... :)

Bearable nights will play hard to get,
as lonely nights prefer the cold ice
Drifting among the dizziness

Posted 3 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Pete

3 Months Ago

forgot to mention the unwanted hangover too - a double whammy ... :)
Andrew Nelson Stewart

3 Months Ago

The Sloth feeling I say and you feel like a mummy too, here I am making "Hangovers" sound poetic and.. read more
Pete

3 Months Ago

yes - the walking dead ... :)
This is very very good...

Posted 3 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Andrew Nelson Stewart

3 Months Ago

I pretty much pour my emotions on this one and getting drunk from the lingering scent of someplace. .. read more
light and ashes

3 Months Ago

You are welcome. :) I will review more later on. My life has been kind of crazy lately.

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Tags: life, nuances, saddness, sorrow, feelings, death, memories, drunk, Poetry, drinking, booze, alcohol

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Andrew Nelson Stewart
Andrew Nelson Stewart

Petaluma , CA



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Im active in the Performing Arts, Currently known as the Petaluma Michael Jackson ( YouTube channel @ Andrwjacksonable). I'm cautious guy and dedicated to my work and values. I placed God and family i.. more..

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