I Watched

A Poem by JustBeau

This poem is written in prose and details a girl receiving a letter from an old friend.

I watched you fall. You fell into the deepest, darkest abyss possible. You fell into a place where I could no longer help you. It hurt to see you in pain. I wish I could've taken that pain away, but instead you relied on them… drugs…heroin. I watched you disintegrate before my eyes. I watched the abyss swallow you whole. Then came that day… the worst day of my life… I got the note…

Bye, Pippy.

I'm sorry I have to leave this way, but I can't do this anymore.

Remember, I love you and always will.

I need you to stay strong (I'll be watching from heaven).

Don’t let anyone give you bullshit. You don’t deserve to be treated like that.

I better not see you in heaven anytime soon. I will kick your a*s if that happens.

You were always like a little sister to me.

I know you'll miss me, and I'm sorry I have to put you through this.

I just can't do this anymore.

I know… you feel like I'm all you have left, but I know you can make other friends.

Maybe Tree Dude and Weasley will help you! Haha

I know you feel alone, and I know you don’t want me to go.

I also know how much it hurt you to see me harming myself with drugs and monsters, and I can't stop, but I can make sure you never have to struggle with the fear of my next shoot up.

I love you, Pippy. I'm sorry.

Your Next Guardian Angel,

Kitty

Pippy… a name given to me based on my height, originating from "Pip-squeak." In your weakest moment you managed to crack jokes and realize how much this would hurt me, yet you still did it. I don’t want to be here without you. I don’t want to watch my world crumble all alone. I want someone to help me hold it up. "Tree Dude" hasn’t talked to me in ages and goes out of his way to ignore me. "Weasley" gave me up for a boy that hurt me more than words could say, yet you expect them to help? And I would rather know you were shooting up and be afraid of losing you, than know I've lost you. Kitty… you were Sully and I was Boo… and now I've lost you…